Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[alien.]

him.
you've had tough times with past relationships. everyone keeps saying that they just want to see you in a happy relationship. i've known you for what, five years now? and you still haven't noticed that i like you. or maybe you just don't feel the same way. we're such good friends. i would do something, but i don't want to ruin our friendship. maybe i'm just insane. i just don't know how to get rid of feelings for you. i've tried, but you just keep coming back to my mind. i just want you to be in an actual happy and healthy relationship and i guess i'm just not the one to help you get that.

[ShadowOfTheBird]

Dear Laptop Charger;

Why. I needed you. WHYYYY?!

[sirène]

Dear no one in particular,
I'm actually excited for school

I never thought I would be but I love all my teachers, and I have friends in every class. Even though it's only been a week I've already kinda become a teachers pet in history haha I can't really help it if me and my teacher share a love for star wars and history. I've generally been good and I've been trying my hardest to keep up with homework unlike last year.

I want this year to be better then the last, I hope my anxiety, depression, and insomnia don't act up again, and even though I have a feeling they will, I doubt it will be as bad as before. Yay for medication and therapy to solve my problems haha.

I've also gained so much confidence, I'm raising my hand in class and I'm talking to new people and I've already made a bunch of new friends. I'm really proud of myself. Last year I felt like it would be better to just crawl into a hole and rot away in order to avoid all my problems. I'm really enjoying life right now and I think this is going to be an alright year.

dear no one,
this is a 'letter I couldn't send' that i wrote at the beginning of the school year.
it's now the end and this year was one of the worst ones i've had. i managed
to not let my depression control me too much (but i'm an idiot and decided
it would be just a grand ol' time to go off my meds and i'm too nervous
to ask to go back on them), but so much has gone wrong this year and
nothing has gotten better. grades still suck, teachers still all hate me, still
failed p much every aspect of my life. guess i never realized that all that
'confidence' was just a medicine induced illusion that wouldn't last.
it seems like every year keeps getting worse and worse and i'm honestly at a
lost for what to do

[ᴄʀʏʙᴀʙʏ]

dear e,

please don't ever leave me.

[claudine]

snip :^)

[Spottedbird]

dear j,
you said you'd be there for me no matter what.
i know when people say that it's not that true,
but if you never meant it, why'd you say it?
this time is the roughest time of my life so far
and you're not helping me through any of it.
everyone else won't help and you're the only
person who knows every single detail about
this. you always complain about your proble
ms to me, so why can't i complain about my
problems to you?
last night you said that i should "cut back" on
the complaining even though i've only vented
to you twice throughout our 5 month friendship.
you complain 24/7 to me. you told me that i
should ask my other friends for comfort, but
they don't know me as much as you do. every
time i need someone to keep me up, i reach
out to you. and yes, i know that can be ann
oying, but you're the only person who can.
every day you seem to get more irritated and
i can't help but get paranoid. and i too clingy?
and i too annoying? should i keep keeping my
emotions inside?
i've been letting you cry on my shoulder since
the first day we met. you've only done that for
me once. once. and that was when you had
nothing better to do.
you said you'd be there for me.
you promised to be there for me.
but you aren't.

dear b, f, and r,
you three have been the best of friends to me
even though we've only been friends for a few
months. but, now all three of you seem to be
annoyed. i might - again - be paranoid, but
i can't help it. i try not to be too clingy but
obviously it isn't working. you made a group
chat a long while ago where we could bash
on r, and i hated that group chat. i never
spoke in it. what if the three of you made
a group chat where you bash on me? talk
about how annoying i am. how clingy i am.
i can't help it.

dear d,
you've been my friend for almost 8 years now.
for about two years now you've been completely
silent towards me. sure, you'd pop up out of nowhere
and we'd talk for a couple of hours, but i feel like i'm
annoying you too. though, i kind of get it.

dear me,
stop.
stop trying to be funny.
stop trying to be cool.
stop trying to be happy.
stop trying to be okay.
stop trying to make friends.
stop relying on other people to make you feel
at least a little better.
stop saying your life is bad while others have
it worse.

dear r,
i love you.

[katarinabluu]

dear t
please work tonight

[Noni Gailin Ayrenin~]

Dear dog;

Please stop your incessant scratching and rolling around on the damn floor.
You do not need to sit there and scratch your side for 30 minutes.
You do not need to rub your entire body on the carpet that I JUST vacuumed today.
You do not need fed every 3 hours, contrary to what the step-thing would have you believe.

Nobody ever said you were allowed on the furniture, either.
Stop sleeping on the couch.
Stop climbing into my moms bed, and getting her sheets all smelly.
Stop smelling so bad 24/7, how about that?

I swear I bathe you, and not but 5 minutes later you smell as if I hadn't at all.
WHY. WHY. WHY?!'
Oh, and STOP BREAKING YOUR COLLARS.

You used to be trained.
You used to be a fun, lovable, family pet.
I love animals as a general whole, but holy cheese and crackers are you driving me up the wall of insanity.

--Noni.

[Hidori Blaith]

Dear Jensen,
My letter is transparent because it has some weird material in it that others may not want to see. Nothing is in detail though.

We've known each other since 6th grade. We met in band, where we both played the trumpet and I absolutely adored you from the minute you spoke. It seems cheesy, I know, but perhaps it would be considered "love at first sight" on my part. You were an actually GOOD person back then. We laughed, walked to class together, and joked around. We were friends, and while we didn't talk outside of school because I didn't have a phone, I loved every second of it. We're approaching our 4th year of knowing each other, we'll be sophomores this coming August. I was eager to see you again before my freshman year began just a year ago...

But then you changed once I saw you again. You became like all the other boys that I've ever dated, ever spoken to, even seen online. You lowered to what society makes popular through jokes, stupid memes, and just low standards other people have in general. To anyone reading, this is not what We met at band camp again, and we didn't talk at all through out the day. But then, you decided that talking to me when I was just walking around alone trying to find a place to sit and recover my sore feet, you ushered me over to the water fountain. You wanting me to talk to you was an absolute dream come true.

But then, you asked me one chilling question that I will never forget. I cannot state it here. My heart just sank, but solely because I liked you, I went through with it. That made July 16th the best, and worst day of my life. Come August, I get the guts to follow you on Instagram. We talked for a while, and then you asked that same question again. You asked for inappropriate pictures, wanted to see me. I was disgusted by it all. And thankfully I had the guts to always come up with excuses. August 13th we meet at the park and you lead me somewhere where no one else was, and pressured me into things I never wanted to do.

That night, I went to message you and apologize for how awkward, shy, and just plain embarrassed I was during the entire ordeal.
Come to find out that you blocked me. You blocked me after I told you things that I've NEVER told anyone else. We don't talk for a good 3 months, at least until October. I found out you were talking to my friend and I confronted you about it in the middle of the classroom. You laughed it off, but I was fuming angry. I proceeded to message you on another account, this was one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I tried to tell you off, but all you said was lol. The next day you have the NERVE to ask me to go off with you again. My friends saw the message and told me to go. My own friends.. told me to GO.

and so I did. And it happened again. You blocked me. This time, I wanted revenge. I found out shortly after that you had a little girlfriend. And I told her everything you had been up to. Of course, she was in denial and treated me like crap too. But that's okay.
At that point in time, I was satisfied with having ruined your bond a bit. Knowing you were unstable satisfied my BROKEN mind.
But now, looking back at it, that was one of the MANY mistakes I made. I should've let it catch up to you. I should've let it come up to you and bite you in the ass. But I didn't.

Fast forward to November, and this guilt catches up to me. I fall asleep crying every night, and eventually I find out you have one other method of communication. I gave you my phone number and told you to text me ,telling you that I had to apologize for something. In the conversation once you text me, you proceeded to call me fat, compared me to a pig compared to your girlfriend,
accused me of things that I hadn't done. But in the end, you ended up supposedly forgiving me once the two of you broke up.

Come January, we are texting every day. e're just talking about how our days went, why they were bad, how they were good,
and just talking about school. You then ask me again and tell me to just sneak out, it'll be 5 minutes with you. This time I thankfully declined. I had the guts to say no to you. I was proud of myself, I looked at my phone and smiled. But you persist for 2 weeks, ignoring all my other texts just to tell me to sneak out. I thought I would be done at this point. Eventually, you stop texting.
Probably because I said no each time. Selfish.

February and March fly by, we don't breathe a word to each other, but then April comes. You convinced me to sneak out of my class because you wanted to "talk" and claimed we wouldn't be doing anything beyond talking. You lied and manipulated me into doing that once more. I was horrified at my mistakes, and came back to class to find that my teacher had been looking for me. I had been gone for half an hour because of you. It was a mistake, and I stressed myself out over it.

May, the last month of the school year was when all of this thankfully stopped, and I'm glad for that. We began to rebuild a friendship, helping each other on homework once band was done, talking about relationships. And then you told me that breaking you and your girlfriend up was the best thing that could've happened. You explained her new boyfriend went to jail for possession of some sort of illegal substance. She totaled her dad's 85 thousand dollar car while driving with her boyfriend. I was happy again. But since then, you've ignored every text I've sent unless it was regarding a date you had to be somewhere for band.

Thanks for ruining me mentally.

[Yubel Fated]

Dear 'Fathom' google definition page,

Same. I dont know how people can live in LV either. Tis a real mystery of our time. So many
crazy people that needn't have guns on their person.

Sincerely,
A slightly amused writer

Dear Crutches,

Please stop bruising my hands and underarms.

Sincerely,
WinterSerperior