TheComfortCorner | V.10

[bearitz]

my mom died lol
anything i want to say is against cs guidelines so 😍 i’ll just leave it at that

[viles]

• i just walked in on two people fighting, and i just. i heard one of them say an insult and then slam the door as they left. idk, ig i was acting a bit awkward, and the person who was left assumed i had overheard the interaction. i say this because as soon as they saw me they repeated exactly what the other person had said with a smile on their face. then, they started laughing. i didn't know what to do, so i turned around and left the room. idk, those two people are in a relationship, and the last thing i want to do is get drawn into one of their arguments. idk, i'd probably feel differently if it were literally anyone else, but with these two particular individuals, i desperately do not want to get involved. i feel incredibly awkward, and i don't want to leave this room out of fear of running into either one of them

[rabidcoyote]

This is a checkpoint! If you're reading this, you've made it.

Just a little more to go until we're out of this dump, I hope. We can afford a little rest, but let's keep going soon, okay?

[pandaa]

just got an i love you text from a friend who rarely says it out loud, little bit scared 👀

edit: she’s okay :,)

[shinx.]

just wish someone could give me a tight hug :')

[screamingrainfrog]

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[viles]

• listened to an episode of The Podcast and had a crisis. it's my own fault this time (and arguably, it was my fault the other times as well). they were talking about their experiences as self-described nerds and it got me thinking about how like,, i've always been perceived as a nerd because i'm socially awkward and reclusive, but in actuality, i've never really felt very knowledgeable about my interests. like, idk in some cases i have felt very passionate about my interests, but i've just...not known much about them? idk. people have treated me in a way that to me comes across as if they have expected me to be Weird and Unique and Nerdy but idk. i think in reality i'm not very quirky,, i'm just bad at interacting with people in the way that they want/expect me to. and idk just thinking about that sort of lead into like 'i have no idea who i am' sort of crisis because idk. i've just,,, i'm still not working and i don't have any inkling about the sort of work i'd like to do, For A Living, yk? like,, idk i have some preferences about small jobs,, but like,, nothing in terms of a job i could use to like,, live on my own and like,, actually have a life ykyk,, and idk. i just. i keep having dreams where i get jobs and make something of myself and i just,, i want to be like that,, i want to be A Person but i just,,, idk i need to go to therapy but like,, i don't have time i need to work i need to make myself be a person i need to do something and i just,, idk. i'm stuck and i want to get out of it i want to leave but also like,, idk how true that is bc i feel like a person who actually wanted those things would do something about it instead of just,, saying that they want it and then continuing to do nothing,, idk. things are just,, idk. i'm not doing well but i need to be so i can fix things
  
  edit: this is silly but like i feel like the highlight color has on my computer has changed?? like it feels like it used to be a less Intese blue and i just,, idk. i can't tell if its always been like this and i'm just overthinking things but idk i keep highlighting things and it looks so odd i wish it looked like i think it used to but i dont even know if it used to look like that,, ive been doing this for days and i Dont Like It i want to stop caring about this

[Soy Sauce]

Not everyone wants to fall in love again. Im not denying I loved being in love. By my body can’t handle the falling again. I can’t spend the rest of eternity falling. Heres a poem I wrote a while ago that kinda sums jt up<3


“For as long as I can remember ive been falling.
Hurting.
Clinging on to any sign of hope.
Ive been falling but not how people make it out to be, not lusciously falling into love. Its like falling down a never ending pit, constantly grabbing at the sides. Clinging to stones for any sense of safety only for them to crumble under me. Its never ending.
I dont want to be here.
I dont want to fall.
Suddenly, I see them and i stop. Im not falling, im not hurting, im just still.
The way they smiles sends sparks up my spine, and their kisses put the most beautiful butterflies in my stomach.
I just want to stay here, comfortable, happy.
Then im dropping again and this time their dropping with me, their words sting. “I love you, I promise” I plea my but words get swept up in the wind.
“Maybe we aren’t meant to be” these words hit me like a train, my ears are ringing, i can’t breathe. Theyre still talking but I cant hear anything,
i feel the tears staining my cheeks. I want to beg, dont leave me, i cant fall again.
As terrified as i am of falling, i cant hurt them. So I will let them go, and I will wait.
Forever in the darkness.
Forever falling. “

[dakotapaws]

again?

[slifer]

I'm a bit worried about something going wrong. I'm making choices I'll never be able to take back so I've got to be sure.