TheComfortCorner | V.10

[demodog]

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[Ioannis]

I feel so stupid. Anytime I’m presented with a challenge, even if it’s easy, my head starts to hurt. Everything I’m working in I keep getting worse at the more time goes on and the more I do it. It feels like everything’s moving backwards. I’m deteriorating. I truly believe I’m nothing. I’m not an artist, I’m not smart, I’m not a musician, I’m not an athlete, I’m not good looking in the slightest not matter how hard I try or what I do. I used to give everything all I had because even though I didn’t love myself but I still believed I was good at things. And now what? I have nothing to show, nothing to contribute, for all the years I’ve lived. At least almost everyone is good at something, I’m good at nothing. I’m constantly surrounded by people who are all I’ve ever wanted to be. And I know comparing yourself is bad and that everyone goes at their own pace, but I’ve been working for so long at everything I love and I have nothing, am nothing. I can’t try anymore, it’s to much work that I don’t have the energy for and I don’t think I ever will. I’m nowhere near the end of my life and I’ve already given up. I’ll never amount to nothing no matter what I do, so why should I even try anymore? My friends don’t know what to say, my family thinks I’m stupid because I keep running around in circles in my own head, and I hate telling my therapist this because I’m supposed to be better already. I just want to be better. I just want to be something. I know it’s bad that sometimes, a lot of the time, I want to surround myself with people who really don’t do much, and I know it’s bad to assume, but sometimes I look at certain people and believe they’re lesser than me, and I want to be around them constantly because at least then I’m not the worst person there. God thats so toxic. I think if everything was a video game I would have quit a long time ago.

[Eneco]

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[bfdi]

why did u have to drop a bomb and change the topic like nothing happened. ur literal life is at risk and ur saying it doesnt matter?

i probably should not care as much . but. i dont want them 2 be gone, you know? and even if they told me they wont go anywhere its really not enough for me because they still get thoughts about doing that.

and they wont tell me why

aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

it hurts me so much though it probably hurts them even more

it would be easier if they simply told me whats wrong.

[flooxii]

I can't get enough of the scratching. but at the same time.. god.. please go away. I'm so itchy when there's nothing there.. I don't want to leave marks. it's just that I'm itchy but not. I can't sleep. it's so satisfying to do yet.. horrible feeling. lord.

[qtip]

i hate you sm

[peachy!]

i haven't been able to get restful sleep for almost a year now. i can feel my cognitive abilities declining hahaha this is so fun /s

[Hawk WillowWatcher]

You screamed at me for… that? FOR THAT? You always want me to be who you want. You say be yourself. This isn’t me, this is the me you made me.

[LittleMaple]

It never gets easier to read Yellowfang's death scene :( its so sad

[Space Cadet Marz]

I've been having a really rough time at work lately.
My department manager has clear favorites, she even has her god daughter's mom working as a supervisor. One of her favorites stole something from me that was locked in a cabinet only other staff can access, and nothing is done about it. They get away with everything.

It sucks because I work hard and am good at what I do, but I feel like that never matters unless you are a suck up that kisses people's butts constantly. It gets tiring and I just want to leave, but being disabled makes it hard to find jobs I can do. I even moved to night shift so I didn't have to see those people any more, but it hasn't mattered, they still make trouble for me. Just tired and feeling hopeless.