Dear...
Ugh, why does it have to be so hard? I miss last year, when we were all so happy and carefree. This year, our happiness was stolen, and we were forced to grow up. I'm not the same girl that E met over the summer. I miss her, so happy and ignorant. I now realize that that girl was a fool, and that I can't go back to being her, otherwise, I'll be weak.
Hatefully,
Royal
Dear self,
Stop being so stupid. You know why no one will love you, and you know that it's better this way. Why live in fear where you know that whoever you're with will cheat on you because you're not good enough? No, live how you are, a long life full of friends. You don't need a man. They're too stupid to understand what your life is like. How would they understand the pain you're dealing with? No, it's much better to be alone in that sense.
Hatefully,
Royal
Dear E,
...You don't talk to me anymore. I've come to the conclusion that I only want to be your friend. I think it's better this way, so there won't be any weirdness this summer at VBS. I hope you will be happy with whoever you decide to be with.
Your friend,
Royal