TheComfortCorner | V.10

[Hawk WillowWatcher]

If you’re going to bully me. Then. I’ll just act like a narcissist. You did this to your self. This is my last option.

(Edit: bit of context: I am not actually, I’m just not going to listen to a thing they say.)

[halo]

i don’t know who i am . i feel lost and blurry all the time . that disorienting “ deja vu ” thing keeps happening more and more and it’s messing with my head . it’s like part of me isn’t here
idek . it’s getting really bad again . really bad . i’m not important to anyone i talk to . i’m scared of my parents . my brothers and i don’t get along by any means . people online tend to ignore everything i say because my interests are apparently weird , and not in an endearing way . my best friend left and i don’t even know why — maybe he’ll come back , idk . i can’t really make him stop ghosting me . there are like three people i talk to at school who i can’t even let myself call friends because as soon as the bell rings , they’re off to do stuff with who they actually want to talk to . idk . everyone complains about everything but at least they have one person to talk to . who do i have ? no one . i miss wes . what did i do to make everyone dislike me so much ? i’m so scared of beimg alone i just want even one friend or anyone who loves me at all
where did everyone go ?

[shadow~wolf]

you've reached a checkpoint :)))

enjoy these bunnies and take some deep breaths! im glad you're still here.
hang in there!!

[67Phlox]

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[_SmollJellyfish_]

I don't have trust, how do I think I can build friendships with others if I don't even trust my ten year friendship?
I don't even try to make friends anymore, and that's right. In the end I always ruin every relationship, I might as well be alone.
I would like to trust, but I can't. It seems to me that they are lying to me, that they are always telling me lies, that behind that "I'm fine" there is always something that doesn't add up
I can't, I find myself attacking them for stupid things, and now I prefer to keep things to myself, they're just thoughts right? But for me they are not. Why am I like this? I would like my head to be silent, I'm tired

[♥ mizu]

i seriously don't understand why she bullied me. i was so young and she was far older than me. i was so scared, i'm sure she could see that. or maybe i wasn't, i don't really remember that time of my life. i was just a kid. but she seriously affected me. her words were so mean, and for what? she would build my trust just to break it. she would purposely make me feel good on the way to school just to say something horrible right as we arrived so i would cry. i would begin sobbing and it destroyed me. it messed up my confidence for years. it's been almost a decade and it still bothers me. i literally hated myself for years because of the things that she said. she reinforced my hatred. and yet, i only knew her for a year or two. she really affected me.

and you know what? i continued that trend of bullying. it was so weird. i would choose people. people i didn't like for no reason, i would say mean things to them and exclude them. but i would take in kids who i knew were having a hard time and nurture them. i had no reason to do this. there are people who i wish desperately that i could apologise to.

but like, i don't know why nobody stuck up for me when i was being hurt. people definitely did try to comfort me, but when they were actively being mean, nobody noticed. which isn't their fault. but whenever i see people being mean today i confront them and i don't see what's so hard about it. idk

im not sad rn i just wanted to write my thoughts out. also i have a massive amount of work i have to do today that i haven't started, around 10 assignments xD they're due tomorrow <3

[screamingrainfrog]

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[LittleMaple]

I got my hair cut and I hate it. I hate it so much. It looks horrible.

[Soy Sauce]

My teeth hurt so bad. I Might not be able to get the surgery until July. I can’t keep living off pain meds forever

[marciplier]

i need to do better. for her.