by MoonfallTheFox » Thu May 26, 2011 3:20 pm
Dear _______________,
I love you, my gryphon. You are perfect, and amazing, and wonderful. I hope someday you can get past your lack of confidence and see how truly special you are.<333
ILOVEYOUMORETHANEVERYTHING, Love, Moonfall
Some of this is a bit of inside joke-ness. <3
And another one.
Dear ___________,
I hate you. I really, really hate you. I'm tired of being screamed at and insulted, and tired of feeling worthless. I'm tired of being treated like a child and like I don't deserve respect. I can't stand having to sit there and smile for fear of being punished while I am harassed by siblings who not only can hit and bite without getting in trouble, but carry nerf guns, which, despite being foam, hurt quite a lot when they hit you in the eye.
I'd give a whole lot to be out of here, you stress me out and make me grumpy, and all you ever do is fight and grump at me. I am tired of being treated with such blatant disrespect, and all the demands you make are exhausting. You yell and yell and yell, it never seems to stop. You talk about "time to yourself", yet, you not only chose to bring me into the world, you never let me have time to MYSELF.
You tell me I don't love my animals, whom are family to me, and that you care for them more than I do. Ha! Don't make me laugh. You are a killer, you caused my love to die, my little feathered angel. You nearly doomed my wee Romeo to a life of suffering and pain out of sheer idiot stubbornness.
You nearly killed your own daughter, out of sheer disrespect. You never listened when she cried for help, watched her stop eating, start cutting, without doing anything but yelling. Watched her cling to anything that could make her survive, heard her sobbing every night. Watched her try anything to earn love. Punished, for her desire to have something, anything, love her as Shadow did. Yet you never did the obvious thing- try to find her a friend who could love her as he did. It took a father's love to see what she needed, and he saved her life through one tiny little bundle of fur who's name was Romeo.
You just take and take and take. Nothing can ever satisfy you. 4.0 grades, hours of work, endless effort- even then, there is always one more thing, or ten more, that makes me a bad kid. Yet you sit and watch your son get awful grades,watch him graffiti people's houses, watch him harass me, hurt me, insult me, scare the living hell out of me, and drive me to breaking point, without lifting a finger to help- until I finally strike at him. Then I'm in trouble.
You promise trust, you promise love. Yet I never get it, no matter what I do. I'm tired. Blackness is so much more welcoming than this house, than this family, than your constant attacks, because no matter what you say, money is not a subsitute for love. No number of horses, hay bales, or rides to lessons can ever do what a few simple words and a little respect could. But now it's too late- even if you tried, I wouldn't listen to you. I want nothing more than to get out of here.
I love daddy, not you. You love -little sibling- not me. Stop harassing me. I'm never going to be a boy, never going to be that son you always dreamed of. Never going to be perfect and tired of being the brunt of every goddang thing you can think of.
I hate you. I ****ing HATE you.
-Moonfall The Fox.
PS. Yes, fox. Not related to you in any way, you stupid *****.
Moonfall //
He/Him //
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And it's true, I hate everything but you."
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