Things that make you sad. =(

[Strudel]

Losing someone you really care for in a car accident involving a drunk... that's just the epitomy of sad... at least for me.

[drive-in saturday]

I was having a lot of good dreams about being a student at Hogwarts, but then my math teacher gave me so mcuh homework it's been all I can think about, and now I don't have too many HP dreams anymore... I want them to come back, because it used to be like every night I went to Hogwarts and did something awesome, but now it's more like I'm in some weird space dome headed for a star, so we're all going to burn up, but me and this weird moving tree thing are the only things in the dome, and then the tree starts burning and the dome starts evaporating and then the tree does something really disturbing, and then all of a sudden I'm trick-or-treating with AVPM Cedric... I don't know what that has to do with math, but that's a dream I had recently...

[Cloudsong]

Today was my birthday. My dad didn't say a word to me half the day; not even a simple 'happy birthday'. Then when he did talk he told me that I should go to my room; that was before we had cake. I did leave, and now my whole family is in the kitchen gossiping about me while I cry. They humiliate me constantly, in a way that is unforgivable. Anything I like they make fun of, and any passions I have they pick on.

The rest of my family told me very clearly that they didn't want me in the family anymore. According to them I am too difficult, and I start all of the conflicts in this family. When I feel hurt, I always retort much too strongly, and use bad language. I guess they don't know me well enough to know that I'm only doing it because I'm injured inside.

I told them that in two years, when I'm 18, I would leave them alone. They told me I wouldn't get into any college with a full scholarship. In other words, they wouldn't be paying a cent for any more of my education.

I'll show them one day. I'm going to go through with that promise, even if I don't get into the best college like my sister. And when I do, I don't think that they'll miss me. At least, my dad won't; I'm the reason his marriage is falling apart according to him. No, he doesn't realize that it's because of him that it is.

Isn't your family supposed to make you feel happy, and give you moral support? All my parents do is try to make me feel bad, and even when they act nice, I can tell it's all fake. The worst part about all of this is that I have no one to talk to besides them. I'm homeschooled and have absolutely no friends. I only have the internet, and many times they take that away from me too.

The decision I'm going to make very soon, I find, is very sad.

[That_Brunette]

Cloudsong - I don't know if this is true where you live or not, but where I live, you can apparently live out on your own when you're 16, but you wouldn't be able to get electricity. At least, that's what my mom told me.