
Oh boy.... Where to even start.
Yesterday I had to say goodbye to my beloved cat
Edward, (Eddie for short)
I've been going in and out of crying today as the emptiness has sunk in.
It pains me to know that I'll never see him again, that I'll never hear his Purr, his meow.
I'll never be able to have everything that made him, who he was.
I don't do well, with feelings of anxiety, and sadness. I can't stand that empty, quiet atmosphere as it makes me feel uncertain. Like everything around me isn't stable, and I'll fall into that dark void.
Its because of my family that I've been able to try and keep a semi happy atmosphere.
But n all honestly, we've all been having to hold each other up.
It's hard, and it hurts, Because he was a great cat.
He was a part of my family, and I miss him so much, I wish with all my heart that this was just a nightmare, that I could go looking for him in my house, and find him. I want to call him in the special way that I did.
I just wanted to hold him, to help me get through this grief.
I just so badly want him back...
And i know he's never coming back, and I know it was the right thing, but it hurts.
He was such a big boy, he had a soothing purr that a absolutely loved.
And when ever he purred, he would sometimes give a small wuff.
He would also meow, when he wanted something, or if he was just saying hi.
And i loved to meow back at him, because he would always meow back, and it would become a little meowing conversation.
And sometimes I wonder just talk to him instead of meowing, and have this conversation as if he was telling me something.
He would drool when he gor really happy.
And he would purr so easily, all you had to do was touch him, make eye contact, say his name, and he would purr.
He used to love playing fetch.
He would let me hold him in many different ways, and mess around with him.
He even threw little tantrums when he didn't get something that he wanted when he wanted it, (like food)
He was such a good cat, I'd I'll miss him great.
He's been a part of this family for over 11 years, and I'd do anything to have him back.
But I know he's in a better place, so this candles for him,
Love you big guy. 💔
He's done so much for me, and I'm forever grateful.
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Please forgive any misspellings, and poor grammar.