The Bipolar & EUPD/Borderline Personality Disorder Army

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[selkiesssong]

I think this is great to have, as I have BPD and sometimes feel lost and out of place. Thank you for having this safe space!

I have been going through it lately with the feeling of rejection. Normally, I'm fine, but lately, even canceled trades on here make me squirm! Anyone else feel like this sometimes? I'm not mad by any means, just...bummed out about it

super duper real late to this but i get this 100%. i very heavily suspect i have bipolar of some sort but currently am unable to be actually medically diagnosed (though my psychologist and therapist both say i may have it) and whenever a trade i sent gets cancelled or even edited i cant help but kinda sulk about it for a while

[cswolf.]

I, and a medical professional, are almost certain I have BPD

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[MagicM3w]

I’m happy to see this community here. I’ve been diagnosed since 2014 and still struggle with accepting myself with the diagnosis. I was always told I was just sensitive, “thin-skinned”, an indigo child. Nobody ever mentioned the dark side of being sensitive to me even though I could see it myself. Now it’s all used against me daily (if I interact with others).

[Klebonez]

Oh hi! Can I join?

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Oh hi! Can I join?

Yes, of course! Everyone is welcome.

I am also so happy to see everyone's posts on my thread and glad to know that this is a safe space for those who need it <3

[paperfoldingrabbit]

I hope it's okay that I'm posting here but this seemed like the best place to share my story and I was hoping it might help others.

So I started seeing a therapist and psychiatrist in 2019 and I was a minor at the time. My therapist very quickly determined I had ADHD and the psychiatrist told me I scored high for several personality disorders but scored the highest for BPD. Nobody even explains to me what BPD or any of those personality disorders even were. I didn't even care about what diagnosis I received at all at the time so I did almost no research and just accepted they knew what they were talking about because they were professionals.

Flash forward to 2023 and I began to care A WHOLE LOT about what I was diagnosed with. Went on a whole "quest" to make sure I was diagnosed properly and I realized something, I didn't fit the criteria for BPD like AT ALL. The more research I did the more I realized I definitely did not have this disorder. After several useless, frustrating appointments with the psychiatrist I realized he really didn't understand or care about me at all and I stopped seeing him. And after many difficult conversations with my therapist I got her to finally accept I "probably" don't have BPD (she won't say I definitely don't because "she's not an expert in that and neither am I.")

I don't know why I scored so high for BPD back then (I think it was like 94% or something) but I took what I could tell was the exact same test in an assessment with a psychologist in January and she said I didn't score high for BPD or any personality disorders. If I had to guess what happened, the psychiatrist saw a lonely girl who didn't like herself very much and had anger issues and thought he'd just slap BPD on me and call it a day. Thankfully I never was officially diagnosed with BPD or any of the other personality disorders but I was genuinely so heartbroken when it really looked like I was going to be because I knew that wasn't my truth.

I am writing this to say that if you have been diagnosed with BPD or anything really, make sure you do tons of research to make sure it actually fits! We want to trust that the professionals care about us and are here to help but unfortunately sometimes they just do what's easiest. We are told they "know best" but nobody knows you better than YOU. BPD and BD are both extremely common misdiagnoses given out shockingly easily, especially if you're a young woman. If your psychiatrist is saying things that aren't accurate, correct them. If they don't seem to listen to you or even care, stop seeing them and find a new one if you can. Don't let them gaslight you, their perception is not your reality.

And to those of you who are certain you have BPD, I see you. BPD is a very real, very serious disorder and my heart goes out to all of you who struggle with it. You are loved, you are special, you are not a bad person. Your life is worth living and you can do beautiful, incredible things ❤️

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