[Celozon]

idk felt like I needed to draw something so,, uh here it is. something.

Ever feel like, the one thing you are good at is, something you're not really good at? Like maybe you used to be good at it, and you haven't gotten worse, but can you really say you're good at something when you haven't improved at it in seven years? Its not like there isn't room for improvement, you just haven't been doing it regularly, or even,,,,at all. But thats the only thing you've even been 'good' at. When someone asks what your talents are and all you can pull out is this dusty old skill thats not very impressive. You don't really have an excuse, maybe it just doesn't hold the same interest anymore, but you also haven't picked up anything new either and you're just kind at the point where you have nothing to show.

I feel like I should have something I should be focusing on or doing, or trying to improve in. But old interest or new interest everything just sort of feels like, nothing. And the more everything feels like nothing the more I fail to meet even basic daily needs much less strive for something more in life. What effort I do try to put into things is exhausting and never something I can keep up more than a day or two. Maybe I just have too high expectations for myself and I should just try not to have any, or maybe I'm just really not trying hard enough.

oof anyway enjoy this random thing I drew. This circle things are scales btw I know they don't really look it. Its some kind of reptile with bat ears I think and a crocodile tail that I was too lazy to draw properly, and it walks all janky cause its front legs are shorter than the back.

[Junker Queen]

it cute baby

[dracowolfie]

awh super lovely lil dude there, I love the pose!

Also I completely feel your long words. I have been feeling the same. It's hard because as time goes on the worse it gets, but like, that doesn't help the motivation lol. I hope joy returns to you soon!! Much luck to us both!