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[jinkori]

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username + id: jinkori + 942285
name: mihya

ruler of my heart - BL8M, rubyeye



I'm confessing to him today!

My Angel hasn't come to school for a while, which is strange. I hope that he's okay, and that he'll be here today to see what I've prepared for him. I worked hard to figure out what my Angel likes.

But I have long since noticed that he loves rabbits. My Angel always uses rabbit shaped pens during class. Whenever he's deep in thought or nervous or flustered, he would nibble on the tip of the pen. I even own a few of his favorite pens! Of course, they are all littered in his bitemarks. They're like my trophies. Though, My Angel would be upset if he knew that I had taken them from him, but it's okay. Because I could always buy him as many as he'd like.

This habit of his is super cute, anyway! My Angel is just like a teething little rabbit himself. He's always so shy and skittish like one, too. Always so unsure of himself, hiding himself from the world, but why? I wish that he could see himself through my eyes. I even took a few photos of him without him noticing, so that he could admire my point of view! My pretty Angel, hopefully he will understand his own beauty now.

Whenever my Angel comes to school, he always has this dark look on his face. He wanders through the halls like a ghost, with his eyes downcast and his arms clutching his trembling little body, hidden by a hoodie that isn't even part of our uniform. As if he's afraid. As if he's paranoid that something, or someone, is out to get him. But that's impossible, because I'm always watching my Angel in the shadows, and I can confirm that there is nothing of the sort!

If he did have a stalker, then I would know. And I would remove them accordingly.

Either way, I should wrap up this diary entry now. I lost a lot of sleep last night compiling every single unsent letter I have ever written for my Angel, and covering them with my signature cologne so that he could always be reminded of me whenever he reads them. This may be an embarrassing fact, but the scent of tulips are one of the main notes. It's because tulips are my Angel's favorite flower. I secretly wonder if my Angel loves tulips because of how they represent deep, perfect love... for me! Obviously, there is no one else that he could possibly love. And that is the same for me.

— XOXO, Mihyaru!!!

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yo mama

cure - akugetsu, park byeonghoon



He's gone. He's not coming back.

Just like that, my Angel slipped through my fingers.

I acted too impulsively.

I have never felt the embrace of another. Others have always found me strange, unsettling, and even terrifying. Of course, it never bothered me, because all I needed was my Angel. He is so lovely, so kind and pure-hearted. He would be able to see through all my "faults" for sure. And that is all that matters.

So at that moment... My first and last embrace, with the one I love most in the universe, felt unbelievably warm.

The sound of my Angel's heart beating against mine as his warmth enveloped my body. It felt like everything I had ever needed, and will ever need in my sorry life. His heartbeat was so quick, as if he was a little rabbit trying to escape from a predator. But it all ended as quickly as it began. It no longer felt warm. My Angel was cold. So, so cold. But I didn't realize it immediately, because his blood was still warm as it washed all over me.

It shouldn't have come to this. But I know I can't blame my sweet Angel. If he had loved me more, this wouldn't have happened. So it's my fault for not making it clear enough to him, that I love him. That I am all he needs in this universe.

Oh, maybe in another lifetime. But at least in this miserable one, without him, my heart will continue to beat in his honor.

Oh, my dear, beautiful Angel. What have you done to me? My heart hurts because of you. I miss you so much. I miss you more than I even remember you. I wish that I can remember your face. That look in your eyes, when you saw me for who I was for the first time. I have long forgotten it by now. But I suppose this is my retribution... For loving you too much, or loving you at all? I don't know. And I don't want to know.

Goodbye for now, my Angel.

— Mihyaru.