by Vinson » Sat Mar 12, 2022 3:50 pm
Tell me and don't act
Like there is nothing
Please, please
Tell me and don't act
Like there is nothing
However unnatural it felt now, Cloud spent the night buried deep beneath the ground, right at Sunflower’s side. She woke, trembling, several times throughout the night as Huckleberry wafted around the room and checked on Sunflower’s wounds, and found herself feeling guilty for how her body was reacting to the caves. It didn’t matter that she felt trapped in here, it mattered that she was by Sunflower’s side. They had spent too long apart, and she didn’t want to disappoint Sunflower, and probably frighten her, by leaving in the middle of the night. So Cloud remained, nervous as a trapped rabbit, comforted just slightly by the feel of Sunflower’s thick fur pressed against her side. When she woke in a daze several hours later, unsure of where the sun was in the sky, she decided that it had been long enough. She wanted to hunt for Sunflower - she knew she wouldn’t make up the lost moons with a mole or a squirrel, but she could at least begin to make amends and rekindle their relationship. She stood, quietly padded from the den, and made her way up and out of the tunnels. The further she ascended, the better she felt - it was like a weight was lifting from her chest with every step, freeing her breath and her mind. Cloud stood and watched from the tunnel’s maw as the sun rose quietly and slowly, bathing the ruins in a hazy golden light. The fur along her spine twitched and she stretched, grateful for the fresh air and room to move, but most of all for the sight of the sky above her head. This was where she belonged - above ground and free to go where her paws took her, not confined to old paths and tunnels.
Cloud rose from her stretch with a purr, lashing her tail languidly behind her and tasting the air. It was still and silent, but she knew that the further she got from the tunnels and the ruins, the more noise she would find. The trees would be full of prey at this time - she had hit the golden hour. Nobody else was out yet. The world was hers. Silently she padded out from the tunnels and around the ruins, heading north towards the trees. A big rabbit caught her eye, buried in the tall stems of rustling grass, but she knew she didn’t have enough experience or speed yet to take it on by herself. She watched longingly as it caught her eye and slipped further away - it would have made quite a feast for them down in Huckleberry’s cavern. Continuing forward, she stopped suddenly as she caught the quiet sounds of mice moving in the grass. She paused, stilled herself, and pressed an ear to the ground. There was a quiet pitter-pattering of tiny footsteps, and Cloud licked her lips, curling her tail in towards her body and moving forward ever so slowly. She tried to remember what her mentors had taught her, what Honeysuckle had lectured her on, and moved with silent pawsteps. Seeing three mice foraging, she thanked the stars, squared her haunches, and pounced. She landed directly on one, then shot a paw out and trapped another. She killed them swiftly, purring quietly to herself. They weren’t anything impressive, but Cloud was proud that she had caught them on the first try, even if nobody was watching.
Picking her catch up, she turned to go back towards the tunnels - she didn’t want to leave Sunflower for long, and she hadn’t told anyone she was going out. But despite this she moved slowly, wishing she didn’t have to go back underground. Just the thought of going that deep in the caves again sent a shiver through her, and she looked up longingly at the pale morning sky once more. Cloud sighed, turning her attention back to her path, but a flash of color caught her eye. Stopping to find out what it was, she quickly realized it was a bright orange butterfly - what a pretty little thing! It was brighter than the dawn sky, fluttering daintily in the gentle breeze. She smiled, watched it fly up and around, turning to land directly in front of her. It swayed on a stem of grass, flapped its wings, and took off towards the tunnels. Cloud almost gasped - was this some sort of sign? What was it trying to tell her? Hastily she wandered after it, following its lazy, winding path towards the main tunnel entrance. They passed the outskirts of the grove, wound their way around the edge of the ruins, and stopped just outside the tunnel. Cloud watched, mesmerized, as the butterfly flew into the mouth of the tunnel, landed, and flapped its wings. It turned back to the open air and fluttered out, quickly flying up and away. Cloud dropped her mice, paused to sit down and think for a moment. What did this mean? Why would the butterfly go into the tunnel? Why - and suddenly Cloud realized. The butterfly was showing her the path she needed to take. Shedidn’t want to be in the tunnels - didn’t belong there, much as the butterfly didn’t either - and the butterfly simply turned around and left. She felt a shock run through her whole body. Was this a sign that she needed to leave?
Cloud hesitated. She knew that she didn’t belong here, didn’t know who she was or who she came from or who she was meant to be. Would leaving help her answer these questions and find herself? Looking into the darkness of the tunnel, then out again at the hazy, glowing, morning sky - she closed her eyes, torn. She had just committed to staying by Sunflower’s side, to supporting her. But she was sure that this butterfly had been a sign telling her she needed to go. She steeled herself, opened her eyes, and padded determinedly into the tunnels. She ignored her muscles screaming at her to turn around and go back above ground. There was one thing she needed to do still.
Sunflower was still asleep, but just barely. Cloud roused her quietly, making sure not to wake Huckleberry, and nosed a mouse over towards her. She smiled and purred softly as Sunflower licked her cheek in appreciation. But her purr ended abruptly as she remembered what she had come to do. “Sunflower,” she started, softly and unsure. “When I was hunting I received a sign from the stars. I need to go away, on a journey, to find myself,” she murmured, not meeting her eyes.
She didn’t know if she could bring herself to. “I don’t know how long I’ll be gone, and I’m going to miss you so much, but I’m sure it was a sign and I have to follow it. Can you understand?” She asked, reaching a paw out to place it on Sunflower’s. The older molly stiffened.
“I don’t want you to leave,” Sunflower said shakily, breath caught in her chest. “I just got you back,” she whispered, pressing her head into Cloud’s shoulder.
“I know,” Cloud said, trying to hide the emotions that threatened to spill out of her at any moment. “I have to go…I have to go,” she choked out, finally looking up to meet Sunflower’s eyes. A quiet sob rattled its way out of her chest, and Cloud pressed her face into Sunflower’s neck ruff, breathing in deeply, then rising shakily to her paws and wobbling a few steps out of the cave.
“Goodbye, Sunflower,” she called out, hushed, wrought with emotion. “Please…can you tell my mother that I’ve gone?” She asked, feeling tears spring to her eyes. But she didn’t dare look back at Sunflower any longer, feeling that if she gazed too long into her sunset eyes she would be drawn back into the cave. Cloud turned and ran out of the tunnel, wound her way up to the entrance, and kept running, away, away, away.
Sunflower choked out a harsh sob and collapsed back into the ground, curling her paws up into her chest and hiding her face in her thick fur. The mice that Cloud had caught for her sat unnoticed at the edge of her nest.
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Vinson on Tue Mar 22, 2022 10:39 am, edited 4 times in total.