haechan wrote:i've always had a hard time remembering memories
and recently i've been getting a lot of memories of
old online friends, and how much they meant and will
always mean to me, and it breaks my heart bc most
of the time there is no way for me to contact them,
and i just miss them so much it actually hurts.
i've also been feeling so incredibly down bc my bf
forgot about a date we had planned after not seeing
each other for a month, and i ended up waiting 3
hours hoping he was just running late but obviously he
wasnt. it's been three days and i swear he doesn't even
know he forgot bc he hasn't apologized or mentioned it,
but honestly it really messed me up bc i use to get asked
out as a joke a lot and i've always been paranoid that
he's dating me as a joke because of that and idk.. i
don't wanna bring it up bc i feel like i'd be being annoying
and dramatic...i don't know why but it's just triggered
a lot of bad memories and left me anxious and super
emotional and i just feel like i'm being dramatic.
did your Internet friends quit the internet and that is one reason you cannot contact them? and you feel abandoned, replaced,rejected?
