by Yubel Fated » Fri Mar 30, 2018 11:12 pm
This letter isn't really to anyone in particular, but.... Honestly.
I just want to pack up the people I love and move them to a place where we can all be happy. We can move to the middle of Disneyland for all I care. Honestly, that'd probably be illegal.. So maybe not the middle of a theme park. But the point still stands. I'm so stressed and so worn down. I'm pretty sure mom's at the same point right now, but she doesn't have an account to vent on so.. eh. Maybe i'll get her to write something down at some point. I don't know.
I-I don't know, i'm so tired. So so tired. I want to cry.
A part of me doesn't want surgery but another part of me does. I don't want to go through it again but at the same time I know it'll help me in the long haul. So I guess i'll tough it out for my parents, they seem really excited for me. So i'm glad they're picking it up where I lack luster.
Im so darn afraid of it. I know what will happen, but honestly its sad that I'm getting more worked up over something as small as that compared to getting three tattoos at the same time. I've talked about this with my mom, and honestly she's right. But gosh darn.
Oh yeah.. I get surgery in.... A few days. The Sixth. End of next week, that'll be fun. I guess. Here's to hoping nothing goes like last time. Drama included, because that was a riot.
Speaking of Drama, I hate it. Hate's a strong word, but honestly. I do. I really do. I've dealt with it for most of my life for simply stupid reasons and stupid people who like to argue and cause a scene. Even if its unwarranted. I want to live away from drama. Why did that become the norm? I dont really understand it. And honestly, unlike the last question I asked people and never got a response from, I dont want to know. I really don't.
Have your drama filled life and eat it too because I don't want my share. I've thrown it against the wall too many times to count, drowned it out with milk and water. I'm sick. I don't want it, its too rich and too textured for my liking. You can have it. I don't care. This isn't my party and I darn well can't cry if I want to.
This is going to sound weird after all of that emotional baggage. But I want a cat. I just want a cat. I will name... Well I was going to name him Alphonse but I don't think mom wants a male cat again after Chocolate. so.. Um.. Not sure what i'll name her yet. Anyway. Goodnight all after one last letter I think.
~Flame Alchemist
Dear Grandma,
I'm not going to write you a long letter. Not that you'll ever really read this anyway since well.. I'd be surprised if you found this by yourself. Anyway.
My social life is fine. I have online friends who I talk to all the time, its just that initial stage of 'Holy crap the worlds gonna end if I try to talk to a doctor.' Though honestly... I've been better, I still get stuck sometimes talking to the ladies at the front desks when they call asking to talk to me. Confirming things.
It's now just a wonder if I'll be able to order Pizza by myself. Pfft. I'm joking, I don't have a credit card, nor do I ever plan on asking you for money.
Your Granddaughter,
Flame.
I'm not your protagonist I'm not even my own
I don't know anything I don't even know what I don't know And if you look outside you'll see disintegrating trees ╔══════════════╗Name: Shadow
Profile: Judai/Jaden Yuki
Previous: Sora (Kingdom Hearts)
Call me anything though! So be creative!
~Credit~
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