by drift. » Thu Feb 08, 2018 3:33 am
I'm sorry I overreacted...
i guess i still don't believe that someone as amazing and understanding as you could even remotely like me...
so when you said you were leaving i realized that i had let myself hope... and i wasn't mad at you, i was frustrated with myself that i let someone tear down those walls that i had worked so hard to keep up.
I'm sorry that i have these walls that block you out,
it's taken years of heartbreak and disappointment to perfect.. and you broke them in no time, like it was nothing.
I'm sorry that the harder I fall the more guarded I become..
i want to let you in, but im still wrestling with the fact that you might not be like the rest of them...
that you could be different from every abusive, onesided relationship i've been in..
I'm sorry that you felt the need to use me, C...
was that really all you wanted me for? to make her jealous?
Why didn't you tell me, instead of wasting my time... I would've helped you..
Now look what you've done. We're not even friends anymore.
I hate you.. just like i hate M, and J, and all that come before you..
I thought you were nice?