by spooks. » Sat Sep 02, 2017 7:55 am
hey.
okay, so i have been wanting to lose weight for a long time now.
i am in highschool, and i weigh 210 pounds.
recently i have been in a lot of group photos, and i completely hate
the way i look in them. it's even worse because i'm next to a bunch
of skinny girls.
i suck at working out. my dad made my siblings and i walk up and down a four story
parking garage staircase 5 times yesterday. (5 up, 5 down.)
and after the first climb up and down, i was breathless and wanted to quit.
i was holding myself up with the railing because i couldn't keep myself up.
i felt like a complete failure because all of my siblings beat me up and down.
i was the last one to finish. everyone was waiting on me for a good ten minutes
to finish my last set. my six year old sister was faster. my seventeen year old sister was faster.
i was so slow, and i had to keep taking breaks.
it was awful and i wanted to cry because i just felt so pathetic.
i have been wanting to start running in the morning,on a two mile stretch of road near my neighborhood.
but i live in a not-so-good neighbor hood where every other house is owned by a pedophile.
so if i start running, i'm not going to be allowed to do it alone. which sucks. because none of my siblings
want to do it with me,and i just want to do it alone. that way, i can't slow anyone down. nobody will know how
often i have to stop to take a rest, or how heavy i pant after a thirty second burst of running.
i want to run alone, with headphones on in the morning.
i made myself a workout playlist on my ipod, and i also made myself a running chart.
on the chart are three columns; date, miles, and time.
so i can keep track of how often, how far, and how fast i run.
i have seventeen weeks worth of this run tracker, and i wanna start filling it out.
but i just don't know where to start.
i can't run alone, because it's not safe, and it's not like i have a dog to take with me.
i can't run alone, but i don't want to run with people.
i can't workout at home, either,
because there is not enough room. and i can't workout outside, because we have a
bunch of creepy old men for neighbors that will sit there and stare.
also, people keep telling me that "running isn't a good way to lose weight."
is that true??
i want to start losing weight, but it's so hard.
help.
baby you're a haunted house
better find another superstition