Minnowstar saw movement out of the corner of her eye as she spoke to her warriors- it was Mosskit, who pretended interest for only a few moments before suddenly interrupting, demanding to be allowed to come. A brief smile flashed across her face- that reminded her of one of her sisters, from when they were both still kits. Rosebriar went over to him with a smile, gently licking his head, and the leader had to wonder if she wished she could have kits. Hm. No, probably not- kits in general lend themselves to being doted on, after all, she thought. Then before Brokengaze could even make a move, the medicine cat entered the warrior's den to wake the warriors. How very enterprising. If she weren't so timid, she might make a good warrior, especially with those sharp claws of hers. But even as she pondered this, a strangled shriek issued from the warrior's den, causing the slight gray she-cat to take a step back, startled, her hair instantly rising. That sounded like... Rosebriar? But why did she cry out? Cinderpaw pressed forward into the warrior's den urgently, followed by Brokengaze after a moment, and as Minnowstar came close close behind, she saw the other warriors rising from their nests, concerned as well, speaking in frightened voices. "Make some room," the leader said curtly, attempting to shoulder her way through her mostly-larger-than-her warriors. The den was getting quite crowded with all the cats who had come in to see what was wrong. "What's all the fuss abo-" And then she saw him. Her mate, Blastclaws, was lying on his back now- and his eyes were staring unseeingly at the ceiling. The worst part? His throat had clearly been crushed!
The gray she-cat stood frozen for a moment, staring wide-eyed down at where Blastclaws lay. Then a violent shudder ran through her body, equal parts horror and nausea at seeing his throat flattened like that. Perhaps they weren't the closest of mates... but... Minnowstar clamped her teeth tightly shut, swallowing down a pathetic wail that the sentimental part of her heart wanted her to vocalize. No, no, no, she thought, mind in a whirl of horror, disbelief, and grief. No! But why him? What happened? Who did this? The leader forced her muscles to be still; she forced herself to compose her face as best she could, though it took a humongous effort and she wasn't sure she'd fully succeeded. I need... to take charge... but... Blastclaws...! "...How did this happen?" the leader said slowly, her voice rough with all of the emotions she was trying to push down. "No one... saw anything?" But... doesn't that mean it had to happen... from within the den?
But Brokengaze was right. "I... I will do my best to aid you," Minnowstar said, even though the last thing she wanted to do was feel Blastclaws gone cold, even though she knew she wasn't particularly strong or the best cat for this. She had to prove that she was still the leader, still strong. She couldn't show how she was crumbling inside. She stepped forward and grabbed her mate's scruff in her teeth- to be this close to his scent, his soft fur, and yet feel it cold, entwined with the smell of death, made her choke back tears. No! No! No tears! NEVER tears. And with the help of Brokengaze, they brought him into the clearing, Minnowstar struggling mightily but trying her best to hide it. I am strong. I am! I must be! But that mantra rang hollow. All she wanted to do was bury her face in his fur and cry. To apologize that she had been so cold, when she should have appreciated him while she had him. I suppose father was right, the small she-cat thought bitterly. She gently touched her face to his, softly shut his eyes with a paw. Attachments really do breed weakness. I... I feel as though I am about to crumble. I am about to fall to pieces in front of my clan. And I don't know how to stop it.
Starclan keep his soul safe. And tell him... Tell him I loved him. I truly did, always.
(Hmm... I'm going to vote Brokengaze, honestly. Nothing personal! ;-;)