- "what drives you?" the figure remains still, inquiry unanswered. my dreamself looks to the right, thinking, then glances back at the classical guitar in the corner, hazy with the white frost of cyanoacrylate. "i don't know," i watch her answer. "but it isn't the act of finishing wood or building guitars." the guitar lies resolutely and mutely.
the figure clicks its tongue and says nothing briefly, before interrupting the silence with a mumbled "how helpful," laden with sarcasm. the dreamself still looks to the right before continuing: "i'm not a builder, but i still plan and design. i scheme and calculate possibilities, and the act of preparing is far more rewarding than any finished product. perhaps it is in this that i may find what drives me."
i watch as my dreamself stares the figure in the eyes, and though its face is visible, it is beyond recognition, continuously morphing between vague shapes, forms, and colours. though i might look away from my dreamself in a hard cut close up or wide shot, the face is not visible or identifiable. the dreamself is not me distinctly, and i do not have the ability to study their face, but somewhere in the back of my consciousness rattles the awareness that the dreamself is my own.
"well," the figure mutters, voice as vague as its face. "i suppose that is something to work with. creation without the need to see the final product. can you pass along unfinished plans though, or will the thought jab at your ribs distastefully?"
the dreamself says nothing.