by .Deku. » Tue Mar 14, 2017 9:29 pm
Dear T & S,
*Sigh* The last thing I was expecting was to get caught in a real fight between the two of you. I mean, I'm used to you guys playfully bickering back and forth to the point it's become kind of a norm. But to see the both of you get steamed at each other for real? That was something I could have went without. And I can't help but blame myself a little even if this tension IS something that's been building up over time; Seeing as I was the one who started the playful jabbing which turned into the two of you just totally clashing heads..
It really hurts me to see the two of you fighting like this, considering you've been friends for so long, and I care dearly for both of you as my friends.. Especially T, I never thought I'd see that kind of behavior out of you, it was kind of shocking to be frank. I know you mentioned having a temper, but it was kind of jarring to see you go from your usual behavior to straight up venomous anger. I know you are upset at S, but even then, it was a little much considering the whole reason S is upset with you is just because she wants to spend more time with you and is just frustrated that you two haven't been able to. S seems much calmer about this, but even tonight when I spoke with you, your behavior was still wreaking aggression. You even said some things that, while I know they weren't inherently aimed at me, kind of dug me a little; And even after it's over, here I am still getting emotional when thinking about it while sitting here. Maybe I'm taking things a little too personally, but I feel like it was something that could have went without being said, despite your anger.
I think I'm going to give you some space for a while because quiet frankly, the very thought of messaging you right now makes me uncomfortable. Anyway I did my piece right? I even tried to be supporting to you despite my naturally protective nature, and the amount of aggression you were giving off. And I don't think there's really anything else I can do but hope that what I said actually sunk in, and that hopefully, you two will make up. Or at the very least, try to communicate a little better. I love the both of you, and I want to see you laughing and goofing around again.
- Sincerely, M
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Anonymous vent to nobody in particular,
What is it with me just getting away from one particular case of drama, and falling straight into another? It's like it follows me everywhere I go, and honestly I just want to relax and have fun with everyone..
This is starting to get really upsetting.. I feel like every time I make a new friend, it always goes really well and then out of nowhere things go down in a giant train wreck. Part of me hates how easily attached I get to people, because it always tears me apart when it does. I just started to get over M and now not only are people slowly disappearing from our group, but even the remaining ones are fighting amongst themselves on top of it all. I'm honestly scared the rest of you are just going to fade away and leave me and K behind..
And it wasn't all that long ago that I felt like I was finally starting to get close to you guys..
ugh.. I just.. I think I need some time away from the computer, I need to distract myself from things for a little while..