by Wings.mov » Mon Jul 30, 2018 11:16 am
So, I had a dream last night where I woke up over and over again. You know those right? Normally really scary, yeah. I had one of those last night, nothing happened, but I was so utterly terrified something would happen that I wouldn't leave my room in the dream. All I did was walk to the window and look out of it, but I couldn't see outside since I was watching from the side like it was a movie. My mom was screaming at my brother right outside my door but I heard him laugh so I don't know. I woke up in the dream or for real and feel asleep because I was so tired and the same exact dream happened. When I woke up for real I thought even 'waking up' from the dream was so hard and I wasn't even me in the dream. I was just watching, it never felt like I was actually in my body. In this dream nothing happened, but it made me realize how terrified I am to dream. I've had so many dreams and I'll talk about it in a minute but when I realized it it was such a shock. I never thought about it like that. I stay up late but maybe thats not because I'm on the computer but maybe its because im scared. Maybe my subconscious know that most of the time sleep=terror. So my dreams, they're always scary normally. The only good dream I've had in the last 2 years was a few weeks ago and I was so overjoyed I had a happy dream for once. Because normally when I dream I'm like a ghost. I know I'm dreaming for second then I forget but in that second all I can think is, "No, please, not again." I'll talk about some of my more memorable dreams. I never call them nightmares, I just realized, because all my dreams are nightmares. Anyway, here goes, they're scary so warning I guess...
One of my most memorable dreams was this one. It really marked the beginning of these nightmares if I remember. So I was maid at an old house with another girl with curly brown hair. This girl is in all my dreams it feels like, maybe it's just the hair. We'll call her Margaret for the sake of story telling. So we both worked for this old lady and that was that. But 'time lapse' I guess and I'm sitting next to one of my teachers and he's talking to the lady I work for. She leaves the room for some reason and my teacher turns to me and says, "We need to get you out of here." So we escape with ease. 'Time lapse' and we're at the front door of the house, trying to get to Margaret. Inside... She's screaming my name. Calling out in agony, begging me to help her, to save her. The door magically unlocked and when I open the door I wake up. I never got to save her, I just realized I let Margaret down. I'm about to cry over failing a figment of my imagination. Okay, okay, next story...
Th next one, I'm in a giant what I think was I can only describe as an office building. The whole floor is cleaned out and has no rooms or anything in it, just me and the group of people I'm with. We had to stay in the building or we'd die. A group of the people, led by someone who had the same hair as Margaret but I don't think... hope... it was her. They left to get like Starbucks or something and they were coming back, I could see them walking back. They were so close to getting back safe but then a line of cars, trucks, etc. came by and shot them all until they were all dead. That's all I remember...
This next one took place in a field with a giant oak-like tree in the middle. Me and what I guess are the same group of people had to run across the field, and so we did. But in the tree. In the tree... there were those things from Mazerunners, the metal balls that cut off your head, those. They were in the tree and I tried to tell people but it was too late, people were already getting killed. I didn't see who but I know it happened. I just ran toward the treeline on the opposite end of the field. Right before I made it I woke up.
I don't know what's wrong with me. What's is wrong with me?? Why is Margaret always there? She looks like people I know, the hair I mean since I never remeber/see the face. She looks so much like my old best friend Brooke and my friend Carly from camp, bith from where I used to live. It could just be a conicidence, it prbably is. Why are these my dreams? Aren't dreams the last thing you think about before falling alseep? Why in the hell am I thinking of these stuff??? Dreams are either trying to tell you something or It's nothing. Am I crazy? What us wrong with me?? The first dream, the window one, was after my friend online stopped resonding to me. I'm so scared for her, she said her mental health wasnt the best, and It's been weeks. I try to stay happy and hope she's just mad at me for not responding but what if she never responds to me again? What if I let her down? What if she's gone and if I just resonded she'd still be talking to me??? I don;t have any idea why the others happened. Maybe I'm going insane. Whats wrong with me? I'm so scared. What's wrong with me
The thing is, I never cry when I wake up from these things. I never feel anything. Never sweaty, never nervous to sleep again. I just fall asleep again. Maybe I'm a monster. Maybe I'm f---ing insane. Maybe I'm a sociopath. Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I'm overreacting but now that I think about these horrible dreams I'm bawling my eyes out and think I'm going to turn into a psychopath but never when they actually happen. Never when they feel so real. I also been angry all day for no reason. I don't know if it matters but I've been so snappish all day long.
Someone tell me if this is too gory, I understand. I'll take it down. This is stupid anyway
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