[Silver Pandorica]

i genuinely feel like i'm going insane
having a panic attack. i forgot what this feels like

i can't get out of my head lately and it makes me want to scream. my heart beats so fast and my hands get shaky. my eyes tear up. i feel like i'm trapped and i've done it to myself. the reason i have no friends, no confidence, is because of me. it's my own fault and that fact is so infuriating to me. and i don't even know who i am anymore, and i'm too afraid to explore that for fear of what other people will think. why do i care? i shouldn't. other people's opinions shouldn't matter to me, yet here i am, terrified to live my life because of my own stupid anxiety and insecurity.

i'm so tired.

[67Phlox]

You're strong for going on. While I don't wholly understand your current circumstances and haven't educated myself on these topics, it seems tough for you. And I don't mean to undermine nor underestimate whatever you're going through.
Keeping things short and to the point, I genuinely hope the people closest to you, once you find the courage to open up, will be able to (the very least) hear out your concerns.

[Silver Pandorica]

You're strong for going on. While I don't wholly understand your current circumstances and haven't educated myself on these topics, it seems tough for you. And I don't mean to undermine nor underestimate whatever you're going through.
Keeping things short and to the point, I genuinely hope the people closest to you, once you find the courage to open up, will be able to (the very least) hear out your concerns.

Thank you, I appreciate that. I'm kind of in a very frustrating spot identity-wise right now and I'd rather not be. I have other things I need to focus on, but this is just taking up so much of my brain space that I feel overwhelmed :')