by AlphaLeonis » Sun Mar 04, 2018 10:19 am
you don't want to hear from me, but here i am. persistent as always.
i remember so many good memories. us playing games together. talking about life, my plans for the future, your uni. i tried to help you through the sadness in your life, and you tried to help me grow up. i was so young, and you walked my path, but i didn't listen to your advice. sometimes you got so blunt i ended up hurting because of it. physically and emotionally.
but you were always there. when i was up at 6am doing god knows what, you were there. 4 in the afternoon when i was just flying around shrine in game, you were there. we did the timeless isle together, we did bgs, we did some fun stuff. and i had so much fun. you were like a big brother to me, because i could come to you about anything. you even said i was like a younger sister to you. was i really? one day you decided i was enough. you told me you were a bad influence on my life, and you cut me off for good, and i haven't stopped thinking of you since.
i have so many questions. do you still think of me, remember me, care for me? do you ever want to speak to me again? are you biding your time, or do you not want to talk to me at all? why did you decide to disappear? the paranoid side of my brain is telling me you actually just didn't like me, and that would break my heart, but i need closure - i need to know. i feel like i've lost family and i want you back in my life. every time i do anything i'm reminded of you. i talk to one of our mutual friends on the regular, and i feel so bad because i'm always asking how you are through him. he says it's fine, but i just feel terrible.
i miss you and i wish i could just forget you but i can't. and i hope to god you come back one day. if i did something, i'm sorry. i'm a better person now. i'm ready to talk about this. i'm old enough now that maybe if you told me the truth i wouldn't take it so bad - i just want closure.
please.
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she/her, leo,
scorpio rising,
gemini moon. hit
me up! i
don't bite :)
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