ੈ♡˳ bittersweet

[arabella !!]

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call me sylvia plath or wtvvv !

{ muse }

[arabella !!]

i miss descending into those vows beside the hiss of your night light
my skin melting against your duvet and desire
for a fleeting pleasure;
nothing more, nothing less
when i pried you reassured me nothing was wrong
i was overthinking us
the simplicity of our being left me with more questions than answers
i should have let go before i got lost in you
too deep the water i tread
for that serpent’s tongue left me longing
longing for your lies again
my perception of love ruined but i had you to fall back to
in lust and lone
i was safe within your glow and complexion
i was far from a sunken ship
erebus steered clear of your warm embrace
i swallowed you whole

[arabella !!]

machine
whirring
lights flicker and static fizz
drinks on the counter and the sun is hissing
my underwear is damp
i watch it turn round and round
sweat sticks my hair to my skin and your scent is woven through it
projectile vomited words in text can't hit send
i'm next to your dirty laundry
fixated on colours spilling—
bleeding into each other
all undertones mixed and matched
like warm bodies and fingertips cold to the touch
the world is smaller down here

[arabella !!]

birds

even at dawn when your body is cold to the touch
i ideate you in warm hues when your ribs rise and sink into drenched sheets
it amounts to a visceral fear, if anything
when pampering too close to the sun...
some things are better left dead

i can't help but feel swollen
my hands are numb and tired
hazy visions of me wrapped around your finger
beckoning towards those glasses
the night never ends
but our days slip
bit by bit
those unceasing chirps become second routine
as we fill ourselves with poison

[arabella !!]

freshwater

on the pier where our souls were coiled last
sunkissed flesh
mingled koi in murky water
splinted fingers
oozing nectar
poignant sweetness
a momentary ecstasy
subtle lapse of judgment to shield me;
distractions
yet nothing replaces
your
(unearthly)
presence
it was eternal until it wasn’t
god speaks to me through thundering skies
it’s not you
i dive head first
the taste of freshwater
poignant sweetness
i wish to sink until my body emerges
next to yours
but alas
i reach the surface
rainwater trickles down my vertebrae
critters thrive
i woefully float