A Special Place Just For You

[RedtailTheWarrior]

I had a dream about you,
it gave me quite a shock.
I thought I got over you,
but apparently not.
The dream was quite confusing,
but after a while, it made a bit of sense...
The story went a little like this:

Your sister Angelina, told me we couldn't hold hands,
and that it was obvious I liked you, and that I can't.
She was quite harsh about it,
but she is with just about everything.
It hurt my feelings a bit,
even though it was a small little thing.
But I couldn't handle the thought of being away from you,
I wanted to hold your hand, for you to guide me the way you usually do.
I wanted to argue with Angelina, but it wouldn't change what took place.
Maybe you asked her to tell me that, and I was running an endless race.
Maybe you wanted me away from you, and I had not the slightest clue.
But really it doesn't matter, there's no way I could give up on you.

My dream continued, these thoughts crowding in my head,
we were sitting in a dorm room, laying on our beds,
your sister thought I was doing drugs... (IT WAS JUST CHEETOS!!)
and we all got down of our bunks,
after this, there was a bit with my family,
but that I won't share since it meant something else.
We were all leaving our dorm rooms to go to the rink and skate,
but you and Shi decided to go together since I was going to be a little late.
When I got there, I saw you and Shi talking and laughing, but both on your phones,
I didn't think much of it, but when I came closer, you both said "Hi" in happy tones.
I don't recall what all my dream had said, but you had given her your game tag,
this honestly made me quite jealous, and sent shivers down my bones,
but it was the polite thing to do to not be envious of others.
so, I didn't say a word, and put on a smile to show,
it seriously was such a silly thing to bother me,
maybe you didn't friend me on that game for a reason,
the last time we saw each other, I was yearning for more of you.
I guess it just made me a bit upset that you probably didn't feel the same.
So, the thought of you playing together, and I still in the dark,
I won't lie, it felt an awful lot like you were playing me like a game.

But threw my curtains Shi could tell I was jealous,
and wrote you a note sincerely from me
knowing that you and I had a special thing.
It simply asked for your tag on the game,
but for me to ask for it for a second time,
I really didn't want to, and I didn't want the shame.
I asked her not to give it to you, and to leave it alone,
But she didn't listen and gave it to you though I said don't.
You confronted me about it, and I was too sheepish to say it was Shi,
you looked at me sweetly, trying really hard not to be impolite.
but you gave the paper back to me, and most sweetly disagreed.
You told me no, to put it simply,. Even though I didn't want to ask.
It wasn't your fault, no. Absolutely not, whose was it after all?

The dream went on, with more and more to follow,
but when I woke up, this was all hard to swallow.
To many, it may have meant nothing,
a simple collage of memories.
But to me, it meant much more,
and I think I know what it was telling me,

your adorable fluffy hair, the ends dyed blue,
your silly glasses that made you look oh so cute,
your gorgeous eyes, I'd stare at so often,
your beautiful voice that I wished never went mute,
the touch of your hands, the feeling of you next to me,
I had one thing to do, and that was to let it all go.
the soft, sweet memories are all I have of you,
and that's how it has been, and will be forever.
holding on to you only brings me more hurt and pain,
and all I can do is think about you and write these silly rhymes.
and no matter how much I loved you, we could never be together,
and in the end, just end up apart from each other forever.
your family loves you, and my family me,
so, we don't need each other, just our families.
yes, in the end, this made me cry a little,
but my own brain gave me the story,
so somewhere Inside I knew it was true,
I would never see your smile,
and cuddle up beside you.
so much I missed out on
that I wish I could redo.
so even though I must give up on you, no matter how much it hurts,
I will always have a special place in my heart,

a special place just for you.