littol stories and such

[LittleMaple]

i look at the picture
and the two of you stare back
so young
so happy
so naive
im holding something
pizza i think
god
your smiles
i want to jump in that picture and hug you until my arms give you

fun fact i am currently crying over a picture :'D

[LittleMaple]

i dig my claws into your shoulders, staring over you while you go about your day
blood drips methodically from my mouth and eyes, and you mutter incoherently as you try to shake me off
i cling tighter, claws making a clinking sound when they hit your bones
but you dont cry out
you never do
not even as i feel myself contorting, twisting, becoming something even worse
i screech and see blood stream from your ears and you crack and i see it
that shimmer of gold ive been reaching for
i break your shell away and tear into the orb of purity hidden inside, like a special treat just for me
and then, in the blink of one of my many new eyes, it is gone
and im there
all alone
more horrific than ever
and i run away to find someone new
to dig my claws into
to whisper the worst things to
to steal from

[LittleMaple]

when i post twice a day is when you know that BIG thoughts are happening is that bad? nope is it good? nope just neutral :]

I am solid
or am I?
maybe I'm 1000 different atoms with no meaning floating through space on the trail of Halley's Comet
just trying to make it somewhere no one else has been
I don't think so though
I think I'm solid
but sometimes I'm liquid
separating and throwing things out before putting myself back together
and in that way
I am so beautiful
that's right
I said it
me
I
I am stunning
I am the most amazing creature to ever exist
I deserve to feel important for once
for once in my life I'm going to be a narcissist for myself
just for a heartbeat
just for long enough to remind myself of who I am
and you want to know something, Kiddo?
it's kinda amazing
and you, Kiddo. you're amazing too
you can love yourself for as long as you need or want to
me? I just needed a moment
you could take years, months, eons, however long
I'll never get tired of waiting on you
for you
I promise
It's my favorite pastime

[LittleMaple]

the tide is coming in
and im going with it
ill still be with you of course, well
not really.
im leaving you for the ocean
as she is my one true love
with her creatures aplenty
and her danger abound
yes im leaving you for the ocean
because you just simply werent enough

side note while i was writing this my car curled up more and put his paw over his nose im screaming

[LittleMaple]

im am made of popsicle sticks and broken bits of ice cream cones
put together to make me whole
and inside i have a heart
and its beating
so very loud
its beating for you
out of pure
pure love
i am yours
and you are mine
and are two comets
soaring through the sky
beautiful, arent we?
one day we will burn out
and fall to earth
but that's okay with me
ill cherish you while youre still here
wrapped up in my arms
and your funny way of snoring
and i will kiss all of your freckles and scars
and tell you
"i love you"
and youll giggle in that cute way and say
"for always?"
and ill smirk like i always do, and pull you closer, and kiss you gently on your face
and say
"for always"

[LittleMaple]

that last writing piece was so cute 😭😭😭

french-speaking girl
pretty black hair
and perfume that hangs in the air like a goodbye
you used to love me and would tell me every day
but now you could care less
youve cast me aside
but its alright
i guess

[LittleMaple]

lukewarm ice water and stale wheat bread
i sip and eat and cry
he glares at me from across the city
eyes burning into the back of my skull
i accept it and cry
so pathetic
so worthless
whats the point
if every time i try
i just fall harder and harder
i should be happy
ive got it good
but the nagging depression wont leave me alone
it pounds on my head and shakes me about
trying to dissuade my joy
im crying and screaming
for it to just leave me
but it refuses to go

--end part 1--

a call beckons me
a whisper
a muttering voice
it curses me out and wishes my death
and look to it and bare my fangs
but its face does not falter
its gait unchanged
it chases me down and pins me into the mud
tearing into the very fabric of my being
but im all alone
with no one to help me
no one to care
i mean, who really would?
ive proved my stupidity time and time again
seems this time ive driven them all away for good

--end part 2--

[LittleMaple]

You are like the sun, warm and furious
My love for you burns almost as brightly
When I'm near you, its overwhelming
I feel faint
My vision blurs
And the only thing I can make out is your fiery passion
When I come to
Nothing has changed
We are still as desperately in love as the day we met
When I think about it though
When I remember how closely I'm holding you to my heart
I realize that it hurts
Loving you hurts
It burns
It melts my skin off the bone
But I dont care
Besides
Isn't it better to love so passionately it hurts
Then to be so devoid of love
That you can feel the ice creeping over your heart?
Isn't it better to go out in a solar flare
Than to freeze on the surface of Pluto?
So far away from anything real?
I'd rather love you in the light of a dying star
Intense and bright
Burning and painful
Like a dream you aren't ready to wake up from
Than realize that you haven't loved me the way I have you
Never once
In our whole lives
Than realize that you have moved on
Than realize you don't need me
And that I dont need you
I'd rather stay right here in my dreams
Remembering the good times
When we sat on the stairs in winter
Cuddling to stay warm
I'd rather think of sweet, thick lies
Than face the icy truth
That's how desperate I am
For you
To love me
Back

[LittleMaple]

Merry Christmas, Mr. New York
I hope it's a good one
And that you are safe
And warm
And happy
Just know that my lights
Will be a little dimmer
My tree
Will be more bare
My stocking not as stuffed
My snow not as deep
And my heart
Will not be filled with as much joy
Because this year
We've been torn apart

[LittleMaple]

Hand in hand
We will run into the fields
And dance on the graves of those who came before us
And then you will take wing
And leave me all alone on this earth
And I will call after you
Seek you out
Wander the land in search of your soul
But my journey will be in vain
As you are gone
Away from these lands
Goodbye
Goodluck
Good riddance