by cherubim » Fri Nov 17, 2017 4:15 pm
four weeks
it was silent.
it was always like this
and yet
this silence was different.
the slow tic-tic-tic of the wall-mounted clock reverberated around the small room you reside in
it reminds you not all is silence.
yet you feel it's cold tendrils slowly wrap themselves around you
hindering you
eating away at you.
this silence
it is one heavy with regrets
unkempt promises
lies.
the cloud
it chokes you.
the wall breaks.
you come undone.
there is nothing left
nothing to save.
nothing to belong to.
nothing you belong to.
its all gone
you realise this now.
a false hope.
it's worthless.
you become a void
sucking in the happiness of others.
shirking any help.
ignoring the possibilities.
three weeks
nothing has changed.
the white of the walls
it comforts in a way.
you stare out the window.
the sun, it shines.
it's rejoicing it's life
making every second count.
can you hear sunrays?
wilted flowers.
they're slowly ebbing away
just like your will, your hope.
or has that already died
like the previous boquet?
rose petals fall.
you cannot see them.
yet you hear.
you know.
you cannot remember who
you cannot remember when.
how long has it been
since a soft voice called?
two weeks
the numbness spreads.
you stare
yet there is nothing to see.
you hear
yet there's nothing to hear.
you breathe
yet you cannot figure why
you bother.
you've forgotten a lot
it will never return
yet why
would it return
when
you
are
about
to-
one week
wake.
eat.
stare.
sleep.
everything has changed.
one day
goodbye.
my friends
my family
my pets
my loved ones.
will they miss you
just as you
will miss them?
breathe in.
breathe out.
in.
out.
in.
out.
in out.
in out.
in out in out.
in out in out.
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โฆ
out.
