by fruitvale » Mon Feb 12, 2018 12:22 pm
been a while x2 ! just gonna . write for a minute .
so , if you happen to be reading this , thankyou ! i usually only keep this to keep track of myself , but to be honest , i just need to ramble to myself a little bit . to make a long story short , im Dying ( tm ) becuase of the flu and the only things I can do are call my cousin for 6 hours and read / draw / watch crappy movies . i feel anxious to pm or message my girlfriend because I don't want to come off as weird because , to be 120 percent honest , im probably going to delete this later since im just so confused . my head hurts and my arms are numb , my feet are asleep and there is lots to do - laundry , snow shoveling , dishes , art , judging , homework , messages , kalon myos , coding , etc . emotions have been weird too ; I dont know what i feel half the time , usually when I am around other people . i have to go to school tomorrow , even though im pretty much vomiting my guts out and the people at school are going to make it a lot worse for me . but my parents are forcing me to , and it sucks , because they think it's just something ive eaten and it'll pass over . last time I checked , they didn't have the flu either , and they're just ignoring it + giving me junk medicine , pushing me onto a bus full of homophobes and other sick kids . positive about 3 girls in my grade want to fight tomorrow too , but i told myself I wouldn't get in those anymore for the better future , and most especially my girlfriend . i can't think and I can't feel the things I want to feel , so life's going well .
but to make the post a lot Happier , I got a book I've been wanting for some time now ! thunderheadis what its called , and its the sequel to a novel by neal shusterman named scythe . me and a few other kids at my summer camp love the book and have been anxiously waiting for the 2nd story to release . it was about 20 at barnes n noble , but 12 at target , so we got it there a few days ago . AND I got another two books ive been wanting for months to get , the merciless series ! ! only book one and two , though , hardcover and all . they were only 6 at barnes n noble in the clearance section . i can't wait to finish thunderhead and start on merciless book one ! ! ! ! >:33c
so for the rest of today im going to either pass out from exhaustion or blood loss ( m nose started bleeding when i was throwing up and won't stop ) , but my main goal is to get my crap together , feel better , and get on track - but first , ill send my girlfriend / Absolute Angel a few messages because i feel awful for not getting back to her yet . she deserves the best , and although im not even close to being the best , I really want to be the best i can for her ❤❤ ( HARVEY if you're reading this you mean the world to me ily talk 2 u in a little bit once my head clears ! ! )