username: newts
doll name: azazel/azzy
gender: trans girl
sexuality: lesbian
shadow name: flandres
dream: "I wake up on my back, my eyes turned towards the sky. Not a star twinkles, nor does the moon reveal itself. A blanket of pitch black is all there is to be seen. The earth is cold and wet against my skin, with my clothes offering little protection from the unforgiving ground. When I look around, I see nothing but a thick tangle of dead trees and fog all around me. There's not a sound to be heard, and Flandres is nowhere in sight. The only thing I have to guide me is a red string tied around my finger, winding a path through the decrepit grove.
NowβI've had this dream multiple times, but it always ends the same way.
I follow the string, walking in silence for what seems like hours, before it dips into a dark, oily pool.
From the pool, I hear a faint voiceβit sounds like a girlβcrying. No matter how hard I try to wake up, no matter what I do, the dream doesn't end until I go into the pool. And when I do, it's like being transported to another dimension.
I can't breathe, and I feel like I'm swimming through transparent molasses. I can see someone hunched over, sobbing. Tied to her finger is the red string that connects to mine.
I try to get to her, to push against this invisible sludge that envelops me, but any of my efforts are rendered inert. I never reach her.
As I run out of oxygen, darkness floods my vision. But, before I black out, I see her look up at me with tears in her eyes and speak. Her visage is that of a fallen angel's, someone who once had such grace, someone who has lost everything. When I wake up, the memory of what she says to me is lost, but the image of the beautiful girl remains burned into my mind."
notes:
- too kind and generous for her own good
- kinda headstrong
- is a social outcast
- used as a scapegoat - she helps people with their problems and cares about her, but then they desert her without a care
- believes there's good in everyone
- trusts people easily
- usually ends up getting hurt as a result
- kinda weird but we still love her
- eats things + chews on things that she probably shouldn't (she's that kid who ate her homework in elementary school)
- likes indie bands
- does the wrong things for the right reasons a lot of the time
- just wants to be loved
- flandres is the only one she has to comfort her, but he's not very sensitive or "touchy-feely." he tries his best at least
- "aw, come on kid. don't cry, you're gonna be alright, ya hear me? i promise. you know i'm no good at this stuff..."
- flandres speaks to her telepathically, and if he wants to say something to someone, she conveys the message, but often uses less abrasive language that he did
- is not legally allowed to cuss