Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[middle child]

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[idyll]

I think i'm done making art, absolutely done
no one cares to see it
i doubt i should bother pouring my soul into something if no one likes it or is remotely interested
because that's what it is, it's a reflection of my soul, something that i was inspired by enough to sit down for five hours plus and try to bring to life
i love critique, so if something is off, just tell me
if i get no feedback, i can never really improve and as an artist that is so frustrating i cannot even express it
just tell me, i'm an adult, i can take it
i try to show my art to my friends and they're not interested
no one is interested
so i'm done
too frustrated to even try anymore
i'm so frustrated my hands are actually shaking and i can't see straight
i'm done with art

this no longer holds true, just needed to release some bottled overly dramatic feelings, haha XD

[pathogenic]

dear e,
i love you, you've known this since the sixth
of march last year, our technical anniversary
was over a month ago, i shouldn't keep our
"new one" on february fifteenth or whatever,
however,
you feel you don't do enough for me when
you always make my world, i mean, literally?

i'm always afraid i'm not enough for you though.

--
dear l,
i love you as well, i'm sorry i don't spend enough
time with you anymore, i'm sorry i never cooperate
with your goofy expressions whenever i'm sad.
i'm afraid to tell you so many things behind my
fake mask i only wear for you to make you happy.

i'm also sorry life decided to beat you until you
became so corrupted with sadness, crying everyday
from the pain mentally and physically, i wish i
could be there for you more.
i wish i could break your fall everytime your crisis
hits you late at night when m leaves for work. instead,
i let you be because i know you'd break worse if i saw
you in that state,
i take so much like you, don't i?

--
dear r,
i don't think, even being as positive as i can be, can say
i can't despise you for who you are.

i give you an aggressive text to show you i'm not as little,
i don't tolerate your behavior and then you tell me we
"need to talk honey" when you know how you act, know
what you could be doing for me, ka, ko, and ky,
instead you make up an excuse for your workshop you
never deserved in the first place, glass bottles sitting in the
recycle bin, it's a shame, who's going to take that out for you
when you make a mistake again?

--
dear m,
i don't understand our relationship, you're so hard to understand
behavior wise. you go from passive, all the way down to the floor
boards of aggressive. you're loud, and you can be so obnoxious to
me, yet you give me all this life advice and help me when i throw
the ball down the lane.

i think i despise you for the lack of compassion you have, how you
try and manipulate it but you don't have any, like you've been broken?
maybe since we're actual polar opposites, that's why i hate you.

that has to be it. right?

--
dear future self,
had to get to you eventually hon, listen, toughen up and get some
serious muscle if you constantly fight yourself. you can't solve everything,
stop overstressing yourself before you end up with that whole two month
art and writing block again, and lose all motivation and become a sore
loser again.

go make some plans and spend a good birthday with your partner while
you can before time runs out. seriously, it sucks being lonely.

[deadroses.]

dear d,
I love you so much and I can’t even tell you. You mean the world to me but its like that for over 2 million people. Im a star in your galaxy but your the only star i see

[xan]

dear julian

i wasn't a liar, you were. You told the biggest lie of them all, and it did the most damage

[leilanii]

dear donovan
Your dating my best friend. Yet im in love with you. I know you know that. You just dont care.



Dear kylee
I dont want to be in this fight. I know you like donovan. I know you know im his best friend but you say im not, you tell me that he likes you and someone else. But i dont know if your lying or not.
Our friendship is over in my mind.

[yetzali]

x
jonghyun,

happy birthday! 28 already? you're getting really close to 30
thank you for all that you've done in your short life, it's impacted
me more than i could possibly put into words, and i'm so grateful for that.
thank you for sharing your voice and your thoughts with all of us, your writing, your
smile, your generosity, your laugh, your compassion, and the millions of other things that
you've shared with us. i'm glad that i was lucky enough to be alive at the same time as you, if i
wasn't, i wouldn't be the same person that i am now. thank you for everything that you've done for me

i really didn't think that it was possible to love you more than i already did,
but as each day passes i feel like i love you more than i did the one before.

now it's been 111 days -
i feel selfish, but i wish that you could still be here
so we could see your gorgeous smile and hear your beautiful voice.

i hope you're resting well and playing your kazoo in paradise now,
and i hope that all of our love and wishes somehow make their way to you
you did incredibly well, we love you jjong ♡

[drift.]

"It's your life
don't let anyone
make you feel guilty
for living it your way."

[escapalization]

j,

once upon a time there were two children.
they were friends in the most childlike way,
always teasing, comparing, competing.
as time went on and the children grew up,
one of them became a star, and the other,
a planet.
the star was loved by all. he always did
everything right. his planets were in orbit
around him, constantly feeding him praise.
and the planet grew farther from him,
descending into deep space, believing that,
because she did not orbit a star, she was
worthless.
but the star cast his light to all corners of
the galaxy to find the friend he'd lost. he
discovered the lost planet hiding away from
the world, told her how incredible she was,
but he did not bring her into his orbit.
instead, he loved her until she exploded
into a new star, and together, they were
the center of their own system, and their
planets orbited them. the planets gave them
meaning, and they gave the planets the light
and love and hope that everyone needs.
dear j, i am the first planet.
you are my star.

love, k

[Hinoka]

To all my friends & people I've met on this site,

Thank you all for making my cs experience amazing : D