Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[gophic]

dear h,

gahh, i don't even know where to start. i'm so happy i found you. i'm so proud to say you're my best friend, and i can't wait for us to break the distance one day. i remember when we dated for like 3 days, and i broke up with you, because online relationships made me sad. we would of been such a power couple; we're perfect for each other. we have our cute little inside jokes, and our chemistry is just unreal. when you sent me all that bts merch and that teddy bear for my bday, i couldn't tell you how happy i was. i had a dream i met you last night, and i woke up feeling depressed, because all i want to do is hold your hand and walk around universal studios with you, and just have a blast. both our families know about each other, and whenever your family talks about me, i get so happy. it's hard for me to be happy nowadays, but with you, it comes naturally. you're my fave lil nerd. please never change. you saved me. i wish i could tell you all of this without afraid of being sappy or random. i love you. thanks for being my best friend for almost 8 months now. i wouldn't want anyone else to be my best friend. <3

- noodlehead (ally)


dear l,

god, i hate you. you're the only person in this world i hate. every time i see you, my blood boils. you were toxic. you put me through hell and back, and yet i forgave you after all of that, because i loved you. you were my best friend. i never thought you could hurt me as bad as you did. you're the reason i'm depressed. you're the reason i hate myself. you used me, because you know i was too nice to say no. when i dropped you as a friend, i felt even worse. you gave me christmas presents and birthday presents. you guilt tripped me. you played victim. you made everyone take your side. i tried justifying your toxic behavior, because you were depressed, but so was i. when you told me you were bisexual, i was happy for you. then you forced me to come out, and if i said stop, you'd threaten me with your own life. this happened a year ago, yet i can't let go. every time i try and recover, i see you in the hallways, and that feeling comes back. i trusted you; you were my best friend, for god sakes. i can't wait to move, so i never have to see you again. i hope you know you hurt me. i hope you regret it. i hope you're sorry, because i'm sorry for ever choosing you to be friends with.

- ally

dear m,

god, i'm so sorry. i'm so so so sorry. you didn't deserve that. you're not even mentally stable, and then your girlfriend does that. i can't even comprehend it. why is life not treating you well? i saw you and chey grow stronger together for a year, for god sakes, you were going to meet each other in july! if distance was such a problem with her, she should of broken it off earlier. she waited for a year until she said something, and now i'm scared you're going to do something, and i won't be able to stop you. i told you from the beginning i didn't like chey, but you didn't listen, and now look. you're hurt, and i'm comforting you again, just like before. i just wanna give you the biggest hug. please just listen to me. chey can't keep a girl. i'm so sorry babe. i wish i could do more for you.

-ally

[kiwikweenie]

dear -

sorry for taking such a sudden break. I feel bad about it, like real bad.......I hate that I do this all the time. something hurts my feelings and then I ignore everyone for a few days then I'm back to 'normal', an emotionless blob. it's gonna take a few days for me to rebuild my guard, so please bear w me.

I don't get quite myself why it hurts so much, but it'll pass and I'll be okay. I'm okay.

[lucifer morningstar]

dear b,
did you really have to do that? why can't you just do you job.
esepcially when it's clear you're needed right then.
you don't need to tell everyone everything eighty times just to avoid your job.
just do what you get paid to do.
sure, it came out ruder than I intended it to.
that was truly an accident.
but i already told you i would fix it.
you don't need to tell everyone else.
and then flip out when my angry, in-pain, and frustrated self got a little short with you.
thanks for throwing a fit and getting me in trouble.
and you're the nosey gossip queen so of course
you're going to go around telling everyone else what a brat I am.
thanks a ton.
-me.

dear d,
really? really?! you had to compare me to [i[him[/i]?
i know you probably meant it is a joke but quite frankly i am insulted.
i work my butt off for you guys.
I have never once been rude to a customer or to another worker.
and the one time my patience wears thin after putting up with her crap all the live long day
while you just let her do whatever she wants
you compare me to him?
him that everyone walks on eggshells around because he's unstable?
him that has almost been fired multiple times for being insubordinate and outright rude to customers?
you compare me to him?
that really sucks, man.
-me.

dear c,
i know i just work here but you don't have to treat me like crap.
it's been a really long day and I already apologized for the mistake that newsflash, was not my fault.
we're technically not even supposed to do something
but I said i would anyway to fix your problem.
you don't need to jump down my throat and blame me for something that is really not my fault.
you don't need to treat me like crap.
you don't need to be so aggressive to the person that is risking getting in trouble to help you.
you especially don't need to do so over fifty-two cents.
i'm just trying to do my job here.
-me.

#itmightbetimetofindanewjob

dear k,
can you just stop
you are such a hypocrite
and stop throwing a fit cause i'm not going to keep paying for all your crap
you're a big girl
you can buy it yourself
oh you don't have money?
too bad
not my problem
I work hard for my money and I'm not going to let you keep stealing it
-me.

[Fwutter]

Dear L.

Please come back. Please. You told me that if your depression gets better, you'll get back to me. But I can't tell, you distance yourself to everyone, I know it's been a really long time but I still love you. I'm sorry if it's weird, but there were so many great things about you, we were only separated by 9 hours. God I still miss you, and you probably think its weird I can't just get the hell over it. Please, just talk to me, I miss you so badly.

[Vixem]

Dear ~

What am I going to do with you?

You treat me so disrespectfully, like I’m a piece
of crap, yet I can’t seem to throw you out of my
life.

I wish I could but the way you manipulate me, it
makes me feel so guilty. I know I’ve done nothing
wrong, I’ve tried so hard to be nice towards you.

I wish I could completely forget about you, I know
it sounds harsh but I think it’s what is best for me,
as of right now.

You know I’m mentally unstable, but of course, it’s
not about me, it’s about you. The world evolves
around you and you only. You’re so self-absorbed &
selfish, it’s not even funny.

Please stop making my life so torturous..

From ~

[buddy,,]

Dear ————

Why?

Why do you let ———- control you?
You’re not her game.

You shouldn’t let her treat her like that.
She is a jerk and you know she is not your real “best friend”.

Sincerely,

—————-

[calculator]

dear j,
i understand you are dying and your disease is slowly degenerating your brain, but you don’t know how much stress and frustration this causes me. you get mad at me for having to go on homebound and always being scared of you but you don’t understand how terrifying it is to live with you. you’re like a light switch and anytime you do something bad i call the cops and they can’t do anything bc you’re loosing your mind and dying.. so it’s not fair to arrest you, but i’m so scared.

[universal song]

Dear K,

My feelings for you are mixed. You hated R,
praised me after what I did, for what I've done,
but I can't help but feel a pull towards you.
I shouldn't. I know. We go together like
water and oil. We'd never work out. I
guess my dreams will be the only time I
can have you.

I'll stay away. If we become friends then the
feelings will go away. Right? Is doubt normal?
Are the butterflies in my stomach normal? Is
the war against my head and heart over you
normal?

I need to move on. For the good of us both.
I have to.

I will I will

Dear R,

I wish you could understand. Understand that I didn't mean to.
Understand how so, truly sorry I am. For everything. I hadn't
meant to. It was just overpowering me, the stress, the weight.
Yet I know I shouldn't be sorry. If anything, I didn't do anything
wrong. For even when we were together you flirted with others.
Even when we were together you broke me.

And now you keep cutting open old wounds, taunting me. Spilling
the deepest most treasured things that are me to the world. You
have taken me for granted. Used me. Showed me that you are not
who I once thought I loved. But heck, love is a complicated word.

Could you stop the madness? Let me actually smile and be able to
call you my friend? Let me move on, let me be able to not be
plagued by the constant reminder that is you.

I'm sorry, but I think you were a mistake. WE were a mistake.

I'm sorry I'm sorry


Dear world,

You've really done it to me. I'm exhausted.
Tried of the constant fight. Tired of the
discrimination. Tired of all the judgement.
Of all the hate.

Fake friends, broken family, puzzle of a life,
messed up mind. Whats next?

I feel it. The way my mind seems to slowly
unravel. I break down, away from prying eyes,
and I'm stitched back up. My silly reputation
covering up my tears. Stuffed in a bottle
until I explode once more.

There was only two people I could tell this.
R, but their not who they used to be. A,
yet I find them getting drawn into the love
of L, drifting away, L being their main focus.
I don't blame them. They usually put others
first. I'm glad their happy. They just seemed
to leave at the wrong time. I know, rather
selfish. I just can't help it.

When will I truly find happiness and be able
to be honest? I now find myself twisting stories
even before my best friend, the only person
I trust. My family doesn't need to deal with
it.

I hope I can make it through this unraveling.
I usually do.

I can I can
Dear M,

I wish I could make it go away. Everyday I see your pain. I know
you have a disability. You may think that I don't notice how it
tortures you, but I do. I see it eating you from the inside out.

But I can't bear to see you go. I hope you won't leave.

You promised you wouldn't and I hope you won't, but is that
enough? I myself know the mistakes of that split second
choice where only one thing and one thing only matters-
a way out. From whatever it may be.

While you insist its not my problem, I feel like a burden. You're
always my peace, my shelter. If only you'd let me be yours.

I try I try

[BlankSlate]

Dear -------
you saw me fall. you watched me fall. i saw you crying. i was sure you would throw yourself off after me.
when i hit the ground i waited, and waited, and waited to see your beautiful wings burning up behind you as you fell above me.
i was sure you'd follow.
you didn't
is that selfish?
sincerely, ---------

[idyll]

it suddenly feels like i am not a likable person
that there is nothing about me that is good enough
that my friends find no point in caring about me
because you are all disappearing so fast
i never thought i would feel this alone again