Dear R,
First of all, I would like to tell you how amazing you are. You've survived this far in your life. And life hasn't been easy for you at all.
You've suffered so much; bullies, terrible sickness and your parents being nearly absent in your life. It pains me so much to hear what you're going through. Everytime you tell me about that happening, my heart breaks for you. You've begun to doubt if your worth. I tell you every day how much you mean to me. I tell you how much I need you, yet you don't believe me. It hurts me to see you this way. Every day you seem to grow distant from me. I wish I could just wrap you in a tight hug and comfort you, but I can't. We are so close, but I can't reach you. I'm scared. I'm afraid to show you what I look like. You've never even seen my face or heard my voice. I listen to you all the time. I know your face. But to you, I'm just a name on a screen. Some one who only exists online, I wish you knew my feelings are real. I wish I could reach out and touch you, just to prove I'm a person with a heart and soul. I wish you believed me when I told you that you mean the world to me. I wish you understood. I wish you loved me like I love you. Do you even love me? You never ask how I feel. You never have asked me if I was okay. You never even bothered to give back after you've taken so much from me. You don't know how many times I've cried because you were sick or angry or hurt or sad. I love you in a way that goes past friendship and romantic love. I don't want to date you. I don't want to be with you like that. You've been through so much. All I want is for you to be happy, healthy and safe.
With love,
A Person Who Cares Too Much