TheComfortCorner | V.7

[cornspurrd.]

They are getting divorced.. My mom also doesn't have a job so i am Scared for how she will be off..


And My other Rat Dyson Died after the stress of loosing his Brother.. I hope i don't loose any more of my babies.


Also my school day has been horrible.. Can it get any worse?!

[:-(]

oh boy, it's two in the morning. here it goes

[arabella !!]

They are getting divorced.. My mom also doesn't have a job so i am Scared for how she will be off..


And My other Rat Dyson Died after the stress of loosing his Brother.. I hope i don't loose any more of my babies.


Also my school day has been horrible.. Can it get any worse?!

I'm so sorry to hear those thing! I hope everything gets better for you soon. <3 -Hugs-

[spooks.]

hey.

okay, so i have been wanting to lose weight for a long time now.
i am in highschool, and i weigh 210 pounds.

recently i have been in a lot of group photos, and i completely hate
the way i look in them. it's even worse because i'm next to a bunch
of skinny girls.

i suck at working out. my dad made my siblings and i walk up and down a four story
parking garage staircase 5 times yesterday. (5 up, 5 down.)
and after the first climb up and down, i was breathless and wanted to quit.
i was holding myself up with the railing because i couldn't keep myself up.
i felt like a complete failure because all of my siblings beat me up and down.
i was the last one to finish. everyone was waiting on me for a good ten minutes
to finish my last set. my six year old sister was faster. my seventeen year old sister was faster.
i was so slow, and i had to keep taking breaks.
it was awful and i wanted to cry because i just felt so pathetic.

i have been wanting to start running in the morning,on a two mile stretch of road near my neighborhood.
but i live in a not-so-good neighbor hood where every other house is owned by a pedophile.
so if i start running, i'm not going to be allowed to do it alone. which sucks. because none of my siblings
want to do it with me,and i just want to do it alone. that way, i can't slow anyone down. nobody will know how
often i have to stop to take a rest, or how heavy i pant after a thirty second burst of running.
i want to run alone, with headphones on in the morning.

i made myself a workout playlist on my ipod, and i also made myself a running chart.
on the chart are three columns; date, miles, and time.
so i can keep track of how often, how far, and how fast i run.
i have seventeen weeks worth of this run tracker, and i wanna start filling it out.
but i just don't know where to start.
i can't run alone, because it's not safe, and it's not like i have a dog to take with me.
i can't run alone, but i don't want to run with people.
i can't workout at home, either,
because there is not enough room. and i can't workout outside, because we have a
bunch of creepy old men for neighbors that will sit there and stare.

also, people keep telling me that "running isn't a good way to lose weight."
is that true??


i want to start losing weight, but it's so hard.
help.

[kiui]

I feel like every time I take a step forward I take two steps back
I had a few good days, but I completely broke down last night
that was the first time I cried in a while;;; I feel so drained now

also I'm such a bad person?? like why is anyone friends with me, i'm terrible

and i'm too afraid to approach people and open up
idk man
why am I like this
I just want a hug

[holmes221B]

I feel like every time I take a step forward I take two steps back
I had a few good days, but I completely broke down last night
that was the first time I cried in a while;;; I feel so drained now

also I'm such a bad person?? like why is anyone friends with me, i'm terrible

and i'm too afraid to approach people and open up
idk man
why am I like this
I just want a hug

I really hope you feel better! You are not a bad person, and you are not terrible! *sends many hugs*

[Mallowery]

Everyone thinks I'm nice and sweet but once they get to know me they realize how I truly am.

Every song I listen to and every post I make depicts my life and the truth I try so hard to hide.

I've failed and betrayed my friends in single shape way and form and even though most of them have forgave me I know they'll never look at me the same way.

They'll never see me as something.

They'll never look for me if I vanish into thin air.

They'll simply move on and forget I ever existed.

Why is everything always my fault? Is it selfish of me to wonder why they haven't done anything wrong?

Is it selfish to wonder beyond and feel like no one hears me even when I'm surrounded by the love and affection they give?

Is it selfish to wish for a little bit more than the life I currently have and simply be able to physical hug a single person?

Is it selfish of me to wish I could hear the voices of others and go out with them and laugh as we walk through the park?

Is it selfish of me to wish that for once I could be the one upset and I'm the one being apologized too?

Is it selfish of me for breaking everything and everyone I've ever come close with and yet when I try to leave I'm the only one to blame?

Is all the tears I've shed selfish? Every single drop?

Is it selfish of me?

I'm living a lie

[cornspurrd.]

Bout to be trapped in a camper with 3 sisters for a while.. Need somebody to talk too before I leave..


Also, I can't be with my mom until she gets a job and and home :,(

[yaksha.]

tfw you have a stomach condition linked with anxiety
and it's been flaring up more than usual lately and you
just feel awful because your entire life now revolves
around whether or not there's a bathroom nearby and
you feel like such a burden to people lol

[OKULTRA]

i want someone to comfort me and tell me it's going to be ok
but there's no one who can do that and
even then.. i don't know if i'll believe them
i can't talk to my parents about how terrible i feel and how much i feel like crap
or they'll go "get over it" or "well it was your grandmas fault and we can't go back"
i didn't want to move houses. i didn't want to lose my progress and my friends and everything i started
maybe i should just stop trying alltogether because we're gonna move again someday,
considering we're in a rental house
i want to talk to someone about this
and feel better about it
and feel
accepted, and loved, and appreciated, and wanted
is that too much to ask for? to have a friend who actually cares and listens for a little while?
i'm just such a bad person
not as in my talents are bad or i'm useless but
my personality is completely jacked and makes it basically impossible to make friends or even keep friends
"oh, way to jaiden up your life!!" THATS A LEGIT SENTENCE I HAVE HEARD
i don't know why or how this hole got so deep. i want to get out of it
i got out of it once, i can do it again, right???
right???
i wish i could go back to being silly and making jokes to cover up how bad i'm hurting
instead of crying and typing it all up on my phone
i wish i could talk to my parents about it and not get a response like "oh well too bad. don't care go away, can't do anything about it."
i want to die in all honesty. that jsut sound alike a reward right now

can we still quote things? i hope so bc here i go..

i hate to clog up the corner tbh but i'm just so stressed and upset. sorry again