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[survira]

i love it when u have a crush on ur friend n u dont know if the feelings mutual so u overthink everything they say and do n feel like a freak bc u like them so much n they might not even know and u worry ur making it way too obvious
hell

they're also coming over next monday to work on a group project we're doing
itll be the first time we spend any time together outside of school
i swear to god im gonna mess something up or be awkward
i like her lots
fffff

[the folly of man]

oh look my first post of many on the new thread

!warning! childish roblox issues ahead!
yesterday I found a new game on roblox and I really like it
it's by the same people who made I game I'm not allowed to play anymore so of course I was anxious
it was really fun
I couldn't and still can't get enough of it
but a song came on in-game that sounded like it said a bad word multiple times
I'm not even sure if it said that or if the developers know
but I can't tell them or anything because I'm not allowed to chat or send messages or anything on roblox
I just feel so upset again because I already had to stop playing that other game that I'd played practically since I started roblox
and explode1, aka the person I've looked up to for so long, the one who got me into actually drawing robloxians and stuff, inspired me to try and make adventure games etc is still missing and I don't know what happened
his twitter link and everything are still gone
it's been like that for around a month and I get really worried every time I look at his profile or play one of his games
I really don't want my favorite game developer to be gone forever
I'm not supposed to look at twitter posts so I can't see if there's a post about what's going on
end of roblox talk
I start getting really upset if nobody talks to me for over half an hour
and that's a huge problem cause nobody is gonna talk to me unless I talk back which I'm really bad at
I feel really worried that I'm not gonna win stuff that had actual tears put into
it's really stupid
I need a hug

[halo7]

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[rat pack]

There was a point in my life where I was so happy. I got good grades, I had a good relationship with my family, I was social, I wasn't afraid. I was extroverted and never cared about what people thought of me. I had loving friends and supportive teachers. But somehow, I ruined it. What the hell happened. I just want my life back, I want control again. I want to make changes, but I always get in my own way. I'm finding it harder and harder to breathe everyday, and am waiting for the point where I just give up and let everything go. I want to feel safe in my own skin again, fearless, and I just want to be okay. But something makes me think that will never happen. I'm helpless, there's nothing I can do. I can change my friends, I can try harder, I can do better, but it will never be good enough. I'm living up to no one's expectations except my own, and somehow, those expectations are always an inch away, but I can never reach them. Everytime I try, I mess up. Everytime I want to be okay, I'm the only one telling myself that I won't.

I can do everything in my power to do better, but it will never be good enough. And I've learned to accept that, because something tells me I can't exactly run from my own mind.

[d o e]

I'm so...frustrated right now.
You've been here for 3 months and I know you're on vacation but...really?
I go to class, I have a lot of homework to do and I'm the sole person doing any sort of cleaning at the moment...and you're getting angry at me for not getting you food? I love you so much but you make me so frustrated. You've done nothing. You played games all day today. I've been stressing through homework, I did the dishes and cleaned up today. You did nothing. So I guess it makes sense I have to get you your food so you can continue laying in bed.

Ugh.

[cornspurrd.]

haha all your rats died.. All I hear all dang day. I hate siblings.

[Guest]

i jst felt like crying all day
i'm needy & i hate this?
sttoppp
why am i getting so anxious
this isnt like me i feel annoying & awful rn
can i just stop worrying please
like
everything is going to be ok
but my brain says otherwise
shut up
i'll be fine
let me believe that please
let me go one day w/o being so damn anxious
i feel lonely & stuck
i feel like im making people hate me
theyre not but i just
just feel like that you know
& i hate the tightness in my throat & my stupid thoughts
god
sorry
illbeokayillbeokayillbeokay i promise
im not usually like this
let me be myself again

[drift.]

I don't know...
I'm back to square one with thinking I can't talk to anyone..
I feel so isolated....
I'm fine... though.. I've totally got everything under control...
I just need someone... anyone..


Please don't reply...

[farewell]

i'm struggling a lot with myself and sometimes i wish i had an unbiased person to talk to.

[;Alex;]

totally just gonna rant about all my frustrations

I've been so unhappy lately, so much is going wrong for me.
My friends always do things without me, and talk about hanging out around me all the time but they literally never think to invite me. They talk to me about it like I should have known they were all planning to hangout. But how am I going to know they're planning on hanging out if none of them ever respond to my texts for days on end?

And like, lately I've just been so depressed and everyone asks me what's wrong but I know they don't care because if they really did they'd fix their actions when I tell them why I've been upset. I'm being isolated by my own friends and they don't even dang care. It's so freaking annoying.

My dysphoria's gotten really bad, and I'm still waiting for my mom to take me for my top surgery consultation and her excuse is that she's not ready for me to do it yet. This is something I need and she's denying me that because she's not mentally prepared. Just getting the consultation doesn't mean that I'm actually getting the surgery any time soon.

I'm completely exhausted. Work is taking a serious toll on my physical health. My knees and back and everything else constantly is in excruciating pain, but my mom won't take me to the doctors for my pain because she thinks i'm over exaggerating but I really am not.

Idk why I'm complaining so much. I've got it pretty good with my life, but its just all the small things are slowly adding up and its really starting to bother me.