by idyll » Fri Apr 20, 2018 11:48 am
To Rea:
one more text message from you, one single more, and I will break my freaking phone
i'm absolutely tired of hearing from you
it has been two years
let it go now, right now
the way i ended things, the way i abruptly started to date Z, i know was not terribly nice, but
posting nasty things
implying threats
calling Z 'the stupid dane' instead of her name
knowingly and purposefully misgendering me and offering to give out personal details about our breakup online to strangers
sending me messages trying to provoke me and Z to fight with you
screaming at me for things I can't help and calling them excuses
many more things I can't think of right now in my rage
none of that was at all necessary and it blew the whole situation far out of proportions
we dont even live in the same country anymore and i had hoped that meant I would never have to hear from you again but of course you found a way to still keep being awful
you can't seem to understand any of the awful things you did
you can't seem to understand that people other than you have feelings
i made a good friend and all i got from you was garbage
'you would rather spend time with the stupid dane than me?'
when you talked like that, yes, always
because i'm very shy and i don't get out very much and i dissociate from people and the fact that i made a good friend who understood was actually amazing for me
i had hoped you would be supportive about it but of course not
and now even still two years later you have learned nothing
rea i was willing to try to be your friend again
i told you how much i missed how we used to be close, how you used to visit me and we would watch shows together
and we would make ourselves sick from laughing at all of the times you fell over the back of a chair trying to catch licorice in your mouth, and all of the times we would put socks on the cat and watch him leap around to get them off, and all of the silly stupid jokes we made, and all of the fun memories we shared
i was willing to be your friend again, because i wanted that kind of relationship again
but no you were willing to throw all of that away because I started dating the stupid dane and you feel so betrayed because i know you don't like her
just go away
go away forever out of my life
wherever you are right now, i hope it's raining
Randí
𝓼𝓳ó𝓻𝓲𝓷𝓷 𝓰𝓮𝓷𝓰𝓾𝓻 á 𝓵𝓪𝓷𝓭, 𝓼𝓴𝓻𝓲𝓯𝓪 í 𝓼𝓿𝓪𝓻𝓽𝓪𝓷 𝓼𝓪𝓷𝓭
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My name is Dan,
and I'm a sleepy artist
with a house full of cats.
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𝓵𝓳óð𝓲𝓷 þí𝓷 𝓸𝓰 𝓵𝓮𝔂𝓷𝓭𝓪𝓻𝓶á𝓵𝓲𝓷 𝓶í𝓷