TheComfortCorner | V.10

[pecanbaby]

this is not important at all tbh but like
OH MY GOD THESE INTIAL VIDEOS ALL OVER TIKTOK STRESS ME OUT SO BAD LIKE SO SO BAD like stop it i dont want that to happen oh my godg stop

[viles]

• everyone else has such lives with so many Interests and so much Knowledge. and i'm just here. i always feel like i'm so much less of A Person than everyone around me, and i don't know how much of that is accurate and how much of that is in my head.
  
  i don't want to feel jealous of folks who are Funny and Interesting and Intelligent. i want to be happy for them and to be able to celebrate them for who they are. and in a way,, i am happy for them. but idk. it's mixed with this,, anger. or sadness. or idk. i cant think of The Word i want to describe it. but it's an upsetting feeling.
  
  i just,, idk. i want to be Poetic and expertly craft a vent that captures everything that's in my head, but if i were able to do that, i wouldn't be me

[pecanbaby]

i just hate the feeling of fear. i wish me and my lover could just ride off into the sunset and have our happily ever after, but we've gotta work. it isnt that i dont wanna work i just wish it could happen already raghhh

[67Phlox]

Brain fog and apathy, what else is new.
I'm in no place to complain, don't get me wrong. Still, I try to go with the flow yet see no real meaning in anything. I don't belong most of the time.

Hopefully this feeling goes away as anxiety fully settles in, enabling me to finish my projects (which I have started and they are basically heading to completion). I keep putting off placing final touches, but let's be honest, they're not going to be perfect. They may not be good. I just hope they'll be at least fine. And if not, it'll be okay. Learning opportunities.

Just a little pep talk to myself before this semester ends.

[FoxyBro]

She said she was gonna take a nap so she could talk later.
She got on at 5:37. Its now 7:43. She didn't message.
She always messages. She didn't say anything to me.
I messed up something I think. I don't know what I would've
even messed up. I just know I messed something up. I sent
her like 12 messages but deleted them. She has more
important things to worry about than me. I'm not important
anyways.

I miss her. I haven't gotten to talk with her at all today.
I need her. I miss her so bad. I want her with me. I just
want to see something from her to me. Even just a "ily".
I feel like I'm about to cry.

Why am I so sensitive. She probably just. Rolled over
onto her phone or something. Right? No, that's not it.
She paused my music for a second. And got on. She
can't do that in her sleep.

She's probably just tired of me. I would be tired of me.

I hate being the system's anxiety + fear of being left
holder. I just want her. I want to see her face. Hear
her voice. Just. Anything. Even just see her online.
She doesn't even have to say anything. I just. idk.

I need to exit the room I'm in before I start crying
uncontrolably.

[_SmollJellyfish_]

This period for me is so sad and full of anxiety. I no longer have the strength to express myself. I have now lost the passion and interest in all my hobbies, especially writing. I no longer have the strength or desire to do anything

[pisto pesto pasta]

best friend left me alone again

on purpose???

don't know.

i thought we finally would be friends like the kind they show in the movies

sharing secrets, hanging out, the inseparable duo

but no

it seemed like it for like 2 months

not anymore

theyre the ones who found new friends again and left me for them

again

i don't know if i want to try anymore. having friends sucks. i think ill just go friendless again because there hasnt been one instance where friendship hasnt disappointed me. not once. ive been the happiest when i ceased contact with any people besides immediate family and my commissioners. because i dont ever have to worry about friends, be like «oh my god is it my fault???» or be sad about them abandoning me.

friendship isnt real. its going to end either way. im so tired that every single one of my efforts is one sided.

[honeycat;]

my poor family has been through enough. it's too much.

[pisto pesto pasta]

i want out of this friendship

every my interaction with them has turned sour and uncomfortable

i... i dont want this anymore...

[67Phlox]

crawling back here once more. this may be a bad habit at this point
small print bc of negativity

i feel so ashamed of myself every time i interact with somebody i barely know, though i suppose i deserve it. i always did deserve it with how annoying i was to deal with. i figure everyone is being kind out of pity and barely tolerating my presence. nobody would be if they knew how much of a waste i am

need to find a different place to intern at
just like i expected - the place i had been messaging for almost half a year rejected me once again. my fault, again