by nobxdy » Sun Apr 14, 2024 8:23 am
just kind of in a bad place again. I just wish I meant more to others than I currently do. how do I become relevant? how do I receive attention? everyone's got their someone. everyone has someone they can go to. everyone has someone that'll talk to them for more than 5 minutes a week. and then there's me, needing to rewatch videos or shows of other people having the time of their lives just to feel something. to feel less alone. why am I even here. I wish someone would just answer that already, I wish there was an answer. I can't come up with anything, and I'm sure no one else would too. there is no reason for me here. so I ask myself this question all the time; why? why /am/ I here? to suffer? to be exploited? to be forgotten about? what is my purpose? I don't know. I hate the people who say they're my friends but then completely ignore me for like a month straight, yet have no problem giving attention to others. great friends. just tell me the truth so I can stop guessing and mentally torturing myself.
on a better note, my eye is almost completely healed. only good thing in my life currently.
adult . male . loserJust because you see a smile,
don't think you know what's hidden underneath.