Dear Myself,
I can't tell whether I'm just in a better place, or if I'm entering a manic state since going off my medication. Either way, I need you to do these things for the new year:
Please be kinder to yourself. Easier said than done, but please just try.
Exercise more, eat better. Make that a goal alongside losing weight, that'll make the process a lot easier.
Speaking of eating, no more binge/boredom eating. That'll wreck any progress.
And on the topic of exercise, get yourself a bike lock and some fenders so you can at least bike to the gym.
Try to get more into your studies. Last quarter was very unkind to you there, so make the most out of this one.
Handle your finances better. At least try to save. Shuffle the money around into difference accounts; only use it when you should. It'll help if you just leave your debit card at home, too. No impulse buying.
Keep going to your therapy sessions. Contact your therapist somehow, let him know the medication if working and you need a refill. I know you can't do that now, but you need to do it asap when you get back.
Please pick up that guitar and try to learn it. I know you want to. It won't be easy, it'll take time, but it'll be fun.
Matthew: keep him so close to you. You never thought it was possible for someone to fall in love with you, and yet here he is in a twist of fate. You actually can see a future with him. Don't let him go.
No more of that thing you do. It stops now - not in 2018, now.
This list will grow with time. There'll be a lot of things you'll want to achieve in life. A lot of those things will only come with time, and you'll only learn how to achieve certain things with time. You will flub stuff along the way and make plenty of mistakes. And that is how you learned. Remember last year's finances - you've learned better this year; you may not have done too much better, but there are certain things you didn't do which shows that you are learning.
Believe in yourself kid. Life will always be rough, life will always be work. But there will always be things to look forward to, even when you can't currently see them.
~peach
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