it happened guys. he confessed to me 😭😭😭
i just. idk. i told him we are good friends and that's ok but i don't know if he understood. but now it's awkward because a) what if he doesn't come to school tomorrow and b) he was SHAKING. i gave him my number and the poor boy was shaking and trembling with nerves. i feel bad. this poor boy. he adores me 😭😭💖💖💖💖 i don't want to be his roman empire istg (or maybe i do idk)
i was totally chill about it but the rest of the day i was kind of jittery. talked about it with my best friend and she helped me through it but i just don't want it getting around because a) i hate drama and b) i'm not putting this poor boy through that. he does not deserve to feel watched because i'm speaking from experience when i say the WHOLE girl group starts watching the boys under a microscope.
idk. i try to sit with him at lunch because i don't want him sitting alone but what do i do now. if i sit with him, it'll be weird and like i'm leading him on. if i don't, i could hurt him. i might have to hurt him though. that's the sad part. i can hurt people and i have in the past but it's different when you can't express your thoughts fully because of a language barrier. i don't want him simmering with his insecurities. i just want to tell him i want to continue being friends. 😭
i've gotten some comments on my other posts i haven't responded to yet and i just want to say that i will. im just anxious rn sorry guys