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jezebel is a very softspoken girl with a lot going on in her head. she isn’t one to stand up for herself or speak her mind, so she relies more on others to make decisions for her. during the rare moments when she does get to make such decisions for herself, no matter how small and insignificant they might be, she feels a lot of pressure and has to ask for others opinions and goes off that. still, she wishes she was a much stronger kalon and often daydreams about what she would say, or how she would act, if she were able to speak up for herself, or at least voice an opinion. though rarely seen, she does have a bubbly personality beneath the thick walls she’s built up around herself. she can get quite talkative, but this only really happens when she’s alone with her sister or with a friend she trusts. she mostly keeps to herself out of fear of being vulerable. the isolation that comes from being born into a family of witches has also lead to her shyness and vulnerability.
jezebel quietly kneaded the dough with the heels of her paws. they ached from the arduous task of pressing into the dough over and over again, but it was relaxing, despite the drowsiness that came after making the dough. she was able to lose herself in the movements, and her thoughts lead from one thing to another. a picture of her own bakery would open up, with the smell of freshly-baked cookies and pastries filling every inch of her core, and despite the ache in her paws, the joy of such everlasting freedom and the weight of her mother’s pressure being lifted off of her shoulders made her feel so amazing. she hummed as she grabbed the container of jam filling from the table and started pushing it into the center of the tarts. she quickly opened the jar of sugar and sprinkled some over the top of the jam filling, and then a little sage, and some cinnamon, and some—
“oh my! these smell so good, jezebel. good job!”
she jumped at the sound of her mother’s voice, and the fantasy was gone before her eyes, and the jar of sugar had nearly slipped from her paws and shattered on the ground. her paws shook as she placed it back on the counter and went back to kneading the dough. “y-yes. thank you, mother.”
out of the corner of her eye, she saw her mother grabbing one of the warm tarts from the tray. she heard quiet crunching, and then felt a paw on her shoulder, and her mother’s nose on her cheek. “jezebel, these are so wonderful! you’ll save me some more, hm?”
she nodded and pressed harder into the dough. it was already softened by now, but she couldn’t work with her mother around. she felt too trapped, like she couldn’t express herself as much without facing some kind of criticism. it wasn’t that she hated her mother or anything like that—no, she could never—but the lack of freedom and the pressure of following in her pawsteps was too immense for her to handle. it was always in the back of her mind, always a weight on her shoulders.
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