[.:Ash~cloud:.]

yeah well the tytle says it all, i am one of those people that keeps my feelings in, instead i like writing about them. i love writing..... but right now that is not the point, the point is that i lock my feelings in about things no matter what they are for example:

1.i lost my grandad a year and a bit ago but like you would i still miss him and i dont have anyone to talk to cause people say "god he is dead forget about it" of which i cant cause he was like a dad, brother,uncle,nephew and boyfriend all of those to me but mostly a best friend or i get a "i understand" i know they try to make you feel better but they dont understand that was the most closest and the first relative to die in my family, he was also one of the first people to hold me
2.i am having rumours spread about me by my ex's girlfriend and she made up that stupid excuse " it was only a joke noone belived it" but it has been going around the school and me and my ex are still friends but i dont want to tell him in case it hurts him ( cause i still like him a bit )
3.well yeah its part of hormones and growing up and at some points i just start crying

yeah and no matter where i am i can not let my feelings out, not even in my own room cause my mum comes to check on me, school i end up with big crowds so i have to tell the story over and over and i know they only try to help but it makes things worse, in the toilets at school well being out of lessons people will hear and then i will be in trouble with the teacher, toilets at home if i am more than like i dunno 15 mins my mum or dad check on me, playing out i will look a bit daft

O GAWD

oh well yeah if you would like to comment on the pic i would feel a lot better thanks

bin

i feel a bit better now XD but still please comment

[doubleArrows]

D: i know the feeling.

[.:Ash~cloud:.]

D: i know the feeling.

yeah how whats happend to you or is it private sorry i was being nosy helping you lets ur feelings out XD thank you for understanding, hey wanna be friends i will add you and we can chat and let our feelings out, so do you like the pic

[Bridewell]

Acording to my school I'm mentally ill and also gothic, and almost all of my family is dead. I feel your pain, feel better.

[.:Ash~cloud:.]

Acording to my school I'm mentally ill and also gothic, and almost all of my family is dead. I feel your pain, feel better.

omg its good im not the only sad one but none of us should be sad, o gawd i gotta go to bed now early oh drat!!!

[Kez98]

lol lifes not fair nobody likes me and when you cry people are so awful to you.

I'm also claimed as 'gothic' but I don't really mind... after all, I am a 'goth-in-training'

don't be sad, theres loads of people out there like us feel better soon