- had to vent yaknow
lately, i haven't been feeling great
and because of this, i've pushed away my closest friends and the people i care about. i didn't mean to become so socially distant, but it doesn't change the fact that i did.
it's gotten to the point where i want to go back to them, say sorry and ask how they've been and try to reconnect, but i know it wouldn't be that easy. i feel as though they've already moved on, and how i just stopped talking to everybody without warning was awful. i don't even know if they'd want to talk to me anymore? maybe they lost interest? maybe they're just better off without me bothering them anyways? i really don't know
but i took a big step and reached out to a few of them, and i'm not that brave or confident in my actions, but it'll be so nice to hear from somebody again, even if it's just a simple "hi" or something. hopefully i can fix things with these people, even if it takes a bit. i love them all so much and it pains me to know that i left without saying anything or letting them know i was taking a break.
little steps though are still steps at least :)
