I'm not confident in my writing, but I want to see it inspire someone.
Not in a 'oh I want to write to!' Though that would be wicked.
I want to inspire someone to be themselves, to love and laugh and live. I want to write something that everyone can see a bit of themselves in and think 'oh I'm not alone'
I want something that my last years of middle school and first years of high school would devour because that is what I needed to read then and it is what someone will need now.
But how do I write something when I'm not in their head knowing exactly what they would want? And how do I write when I am scared of the least bit of criticism? Or when the least bit of judgement sends me reeling in fear.
When I can't head of to get something in the store while my parents are in another, unknown part of the store without panicking?
How would I fair if people hated what I wrote? How would I get it published?
How would I write when the crippling fear of 'they'll hate it' is pounding in my head?
When the words of criticism and anxiety that I am sure are there, but my friends are too nice to voice ring like a gong how am I to get someone to be inspired by what I write?
And why am I hopeful that what I create will inspire despite this?