[nervousdog]

i messed up the first time
i was still upset, didn't wanna believe you were gone
so i pushed you away

i didn't dream of you again after that
i have been distraught
i miss you so much
all i can think about how it's gonna be my first birthday truly without you
i feel just like i did when i was 12 and you had temporarily moved to georgia
all i wanted for my birthday was for you to spend it with me
i cant help but feel the same now as i did back then

last night i dreamed of you again though
and im so beyond happy
it was bittersweet, i knew it was a dream- you weren't here to stay, you weren't coming back
but i think im a little more at peace with it, and maybe thats why you visited me again
i enjoyed drawing with you and jsut being near you ( albeit in a dream ) again

i miss you so much
thank you for visiting me again
i'll keep getting better for you my dear
you still are and will always be my best friend
you are irriplacable . no one can ever take your place or hold your crown
i love you