[nervousdog]

i feel so guilty when you arent in my head
i feel so guilty when my thoughts arent always about you
i feel so guilty that i didnt pick up enough of your calls
that i didn't reply to more of your texts
that i didnt reach out enough
i feel so guilty that i wasnt a better best friend
i feel so guilty that i couldnt save you
i wish i saved you
i feel the most guilty that you are gone
and things couldve been different

idk today is a bad day
less than four months until its been a year
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