[StalePotatoChips]

Warning- existential venting ahead! Just need to alleviate my mind of some thoughts :'D

Does anyone else just sit back and contemplate what life should be about? I'm not a very motivated or success driven person, not because I'm lazy, but because I don't really see the point in it all. So many people scramble to "get their life in order" and in the process, put themselves into irreversible debt and stress. In my personal opinion being in debt is no different to being a slave. You lose so much control over your life and the weight of those responsibilities just drags you down. I just feel like modern society has burned it into our minds that we should grow up, go to college, get a job, have a family, and retire (if your lucky). I just think it's unrealistic and close minded to shove the entire population into one cookie cutter life style. I love to create. I've always had a creative mind since I was little, but have very little desire to become "successful" at it. I have observed other creators who have gone out to make something for the world, and although their creation can be wonderful, they usually have to sell out or loose control over their projects. I think it would actually destroy me if I perused a serious career in something I love, only to have it ripped from me and twisted or destroyed. I certainty don't think there is anything wrong with going out and perusing success, but I just don't think it's for everyone. When I think about what I want out of life all that comes to mind is to live modestly and go with the flow. My ultimate dream is to just drop everything and travel the country in a van or something similar. I could do art commissions for gas and food money and that would be more than enough for me. The only thing thing holding me back is the thought of being alone throughout that whole journey. It just seems sort of pointless to have all those amazing experiences, but have no one to share it with. I have never met anyone who is completely open to dropping everything and just going for it. I'd rather live a short enriching life, then a long mundane one.

Thanks for sticking with me through my ramble! I just had to get some of this out of me heh.

[-Novacaine-]

Dude, I totally get it! I'd drop everything and enjoy the ride with you!

[Houndlout]

It’s amazing to know that someone has gone through something similar to me. Ever since I was young I’ve felt overwhelmed and stressed by the idea of being forced into a “successful” life style. I can’t imagine living a life where I’m happy if I’m forced into jobs that I can’t escape. I’ve lost motivation in my schooling and job which makes others tell me that I’m failing in life. However, I hold onto the dream to travel the world or settle down and escape from this lifestyle I hate. But, I’m afraid I wouldn’t be able to make enough money to support me on my art alone. I too am afraid I will be lonely for the rest of my life, and I feel like I’ll never find someone who loves me for me. But hopefully when the right time comes, we can each live in a way that we like.

[StalePotatoChips]

Yo. Thank you guys for the kind words ;w; It makes me feel a lot better knowing I'm not alone in thinking this way haha! I am currently working towards a simple life style by renovating a camper trailer into a tiny home. It's a really long process because I have to pretty much had to gut it and do everything from scratch haha. But I hope that once I move into it, I will find a little bit of that peace that I have been searching for ^^

[Houndlout]

That’s amazing! I hope you have fun and wish you luck with renovating it.

[-Novacaine-]

Yo. Thank you guys for the kind words ;w; It makes me feel a lot better knowing I'm not alone in thinking this way haha! I am currently working towards a simple life style by renovating a camper trailer into a tiny home. It's a really long process because I have to pretty much had to gut it and do everything from scratch haha. But I hope that once I move into it, I will find a little bit of that peace that I have been searching for ^^

I hope you do find it! I honestly think it'd be fun going on a live-in road trip for a while. It would be great inspiration for a writer, which is my dream career, which is something my parents don't believe I can live off of. So yeah, I totally know how you feel about the boring 9-5's and college and what not. It's just not for me.