ohhhhh my god im so happy and i just!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaah
i left a community a few years back (probably... 3 years now i think) and there was a lot of bad blood when i left because i didn't communicate my concerns, thoughts, and reasons why i was leaving well and one of my previous friends got really really upset with me and started blaming me for a lot of things that. they were either blowing out of the water or making up entirely. and i wanted to keep the confrontation between us private but they brought like. their whole friend group into it and ... idk i was just anxious because i tried to apologize to them but their boyfriend at the time said "don't talk to them directly they're still hurt" so i told him to apologize to them for me because i didn't want to, like, hurt them. and then they just flat out said i didn't apologize so either their boyfriend lied to them or they're just. lying to everyone which. both give me a bad taste in my mouth.
REGARDLESS uh. i left a community and people didn't like me after i left even though there were people i wanted to try and stay in contact with and be friends with but i just. cut off contact entirely with them after the whole stink.
but a few days ago i reached out to one of less connected (meaning is a few years older than the rest of us and was more level headed at the time) people and left a comment on their page saying i'd just like to reconnect and i was like. nervously checking notifications for the past few days until they noticed and !!! were really nice to me and actually didn't seem to get involved in the drama at all and said they were worried about me and i.
oh man.
l a r g e sigh. like just. just big sigh
i left a community a few years back (probably... 3 years now i think) and there was a lot of bad blood when i left because i didn't communicate my concerns, thoughts, and reasons why i was leaving well and one of my previous friends got really really upset with me and started blaming me for a lot of things that. they were either blowing out of the water or making up entirely. and i wanted to keep the confrontation between us private but they brought like. their whole friend group into it and ... idk i was just anxious because i tried to apologize to them but their boyfriend at the time said "don't talk to them directly they're still hurt" so i told him to apologize to them for me because i didn't want to, like, hurt them. and then they just flat out said i didn't apologize so either their boyfriend lied to them or they're just. lying to everyone which. both give me a bad taste in my mouth.
REGARDLESS uh. i left a community and people didn't like me after i left even though there were people i wanted to try and stay in contact with and be friends with but i just. cut off contact entirely with them after the whole stink.
but a few days ago i reached out to one of less connected (meaning is a few years older than the rest of us and was more level headed at the time) people and left a comment on their page saying i'd just like to reconnect and i was like. nervously checking notifications for the past few days until they noticed and !!! were really nice to me and actually didn't seem to get involved in the drama at all and said they were worried about me and i.
oh man.
l a r g e sigh. like just. just big sigh
