[the folly of man]

so the previous problem is over but now theres the still ongoing problem of how much i hate how i acted in 2017 to the point it makes me want to cry

can i just say im sorry for everything
im sorry for offending everyone
im sorry for making people hate me
i took things the wrong way
the way i spoke made no sense
i had no idea how to be respectful
i had no idea how to speak
i was still working on myself and im better now than i was then
im so sorry
and im especially sorry for not being able to actually approach people and say sorry directly
i think about it practically every day and i wish i could just change the past so i could be a better person

edit: adding onto this, i understand if you hold a grudge against me. that's perfectly fine, and i kinda deserve it cause i screwed up really bad. im still really sorry, though.