Anyway,This vent is sorta a continuation to this.
My self esteem is still the same,Bad and low.I still can't stand looking at people's signature listed with their friends,Collabs,etc.It's like,Jealousy and loneliness kicks in.I have friends on here,I do but my lazy good for nothing butt refuses to talk with them more and more.I need to start being more of a friend to them,Especially the ones that devote their precious time towards me.I have friends at school too but I never really was the one to step up and say hello that often.Especially at lunch.I had a nervous breakdown at school many times too and once my mother had to pick me up from school.I'm hoping to seek help for these as i'm heading to high school next year and my god,It is huge.I was originally going to go to a middle college but I think i'm still on the waiting list or something like that.
I would go to my counselor a whole lot and talk with her and she would let me stay as long as I needed to,Even until it was time to go home.
I think this all links to my earlier years where my mother noticed me falling into depression.I don't think I noticed it as I didn't put much research into depression in those years.I was taken out of school and home schooled for a while until the next year where I was promoted to the next grade.My mother did a lot for me during these past few years,Trying to make sure I was ok.I also think her coddling made me quite afraid of school as well.I went to therapists and such and I might have to go again this summer before I go back to school this august/September.
I don't think I have any more to write now.Might write more later if needed but yeh.I tend to get very deep into things when I'm stressed and venting.I apologize to all that had to go through reading this hunk of text.Thank you so much for taking the time to read this about my current problems.I really wish no one had to go through with my troubles.
I would go to my counselor a whole lot and talk with her and she would let me stay as long as I needed to,Even until it was time to go home.
I think this all links to my earlier years where my mother noticed me falling into depression.I don't think I noticed it as I didn't put much research into depression in those years.I was taken out of school and home schooled for a while until the next year where I was promoted to the next grade.My mother did a lot for me during these past few years,Trying to make sure I was ok.I also think her coddling made me quite afraid of school as well.I went to therapists and such and I might have to go again this summer before I go back to school this august/September.
I don't think I have any more to write now.Might write more later if needed but yeh.I tend to get very deep into things when I'm stressed and venting.I apologize to all that had to go through reading this hunk of text.Thank you so much for taking the time to read this about my current problems.I really wish no one had to go through with my troubles.
