about me and beans if anyone is interested
So to lay it all out, beans is a character I made when I was feeling, uh... mildly depressed? I dont get depressed like what some other people seem to have? I dont have negative thoughts or anything I just feel slow but not in a tired sort of way? I just feel like I dont want to do anything at all. The main method I use to get out of these kinds of feels is to make, gift, give, etc something to someone else. hence the recent 'make me a dog' thing I just did. making someone else happy makes me happy, even if its only a reflection of about half their reaction.
Beans hadn't been an exception, I went into this character with the mindset of gifting them away, possibly in a fcfs, or to a user I really like (art-wise) maybe someone I look up to? but i'm a self conscious bugger who doesnt like gifting characters to users who dont know its going to happen, and I didnt really want to fcfs this darling, so I just decided to keep them.
Beans still reminds me of the depression and the reason for the depression, but I think they're cute and it reminds me im i've climbed out of that spot for now. cant say the same for how i'll be in august, but we will see
I see beans as a form of progress? they're pure, ignorant, unaware and precious. they're just happiness and childish
