- im not ready
I'm not ready to leave but I can't stay
My mom she got enough on her plate
my sister bout to start middle school
My grandma goin back to school
I gotta be the example
I gotta go back
My mom asked me why don't I just transfer but
I don't want to
I know this is hard for her
she just sent my lil brother back home and me leavin
two days after just isn't easy in the slightest but
I wanna make my own way
I'm going to college, I've got myself a crew, I'm doing better
I'm not great. I'm flawed and I keep going backwards
This year for me has been as backwards as they come
But I'm finding reasons to improve, to do better
when I come back during winter I want to have improved
I want to show her that I can do this and that she shouldn't
worry about me.
But she's a mom. She's my mom so her worrying is like
second nature.
I just hate saying goodbye
I'll throw a fit before I say those words
I never said goodbye
Because goodbye means we ain't never seein each other again
Goodbye. Ain't nothing good about it.
I can say Bye just fine.
But I've never been good with Goodbye
I'll fade myself outta people's lives
Let myself be a memory
I've done it plenty of times before
But I can't bring myself to say goodbye.
I will leave things half-finished,
half-baked, half-done before I say it
and so I won't say it.
